 Saturday, February 28
 at 11:08 PMstill at cousin's house. talking to HIM. i feel happy talking to him. it's like all my troubles are nonexistent. i feel at ease, at peace when i talk to him. why's that so? rawr. that show, ToGetHer, the one with Jiro Wang and Rainie Yang is damn nice la kay. Too bad Rainie's hairstyle is like shit. xoxo, you know you love me at 9:12 PMrawr. at alicia's house now, blogging on the Mini. but the Sleepy needs to use it, so this is gonna be a brief post. talking to HIM now. he's happy. i'm content. his happiness means everything to me. all i want is for him to be happy. that's all i need. that's enough. haih. rawr. i think telling him was a big mistake though. rawr. xoxo, you know you love me at 5:52 PMhaih. talked to him today, then it came to the questions regarding HER. i've got so many questions to ask him, yet i feel that there's something holding me back. this doesn't feel right. i can't ask him everything, like the way i used to. i asked a lot, then deleted them all. i guess there's still a lot of stuff i wanna ask him, but can't. i wanna ask him if he's happy now, ask him what made him like her, when he confessed, what she said in reply, manymany more. i wanna know so many things, yet i know i can't possibly know them all. cuz' things aren't like they used to be. even just now, there was a sort of quiet resignation in my heart. it's like... right now, i just wanna know if he's happy. sort of a quiet resignation, resigned to fate. life sucks. tell me about it.
xoxo, you know you love me at 4:11 PMrawr. This morning, went Creative. I laughed so much today, thanks to some people like Shzeyuin and Jane and Joonkiat and Brandon. Then went to Fareast for awhile. Had lunch. Mum gave me a long nag. Zzzz. After Greenhouse, broke the news to SOMEBODY. I know I hurt him. I hate doing it. I hate hurting others. I try not to. Even if I have to hurt myself, I'd rather hurt myself than hurt others. On the other hand, had a proper conversation with HIM today - almost like the way we used to. It kinda made me smile. Knowing that things are getting closer to the way they used to be, it makes me smile. I'm just damn guilty about hurting SOMEONE. I shouldn't have done it, but that would have hurt him even more. RAWR. Moodless, as usual. If you wanna chat, chat with me before I start thinking too much and start emo-ing again. I wish I had the courage to talk to HIM face-to-face, though.
xoxo, you know you love me Friday, February 27
at 9:43 PMfinally changed skin. i am off my mugging schedule by 45min. blog another time. (:
xoxo, you know you love me at 8:35 PMi wish i was prettier, so heads would turn when i walked past. i wish i was slimmer, like krichelle's figure. i wish i was some dead-smart rgs girl. i wish i had a better personality. i wish i didn't curse and swear and use so many hokkien vulgarities when pissed. i wish i was perfect. above all, i wish i had his love.
xoxo, you know you love me at 7:43 PMI seriously feel like changing my skin la. I tried taking away the background of my skin, but it looks too plain. Turning the "XOXO"s into hearts didn't help either. And neither did changing the order of the links. I'm so bored at home. I wish I was with them at the concert today. Sigh. I want to change to Da Jie's blogskin, but since she's already using it, it's not nice to use the same skin as her. So I'm looking for another skin. I'll start my mugging at 9pm. I need to attempt to understand balancing equations and chemical compound formulas. And memorise the formulas. See? My Chemistry is suckish. More later.
xoxo, you know you love me at 2:37 PMDa Jie, Er Jie, Joel Kor/Jiefu, HIM are going out later to watch the Huayi Sec concert. I want to go so badlyyyyy. Haih. But I know I can't, it being common test week and all. I hate my life. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There's a whole playlist on my iPod I've been listening to on "repeat" the past week or so. I'll upload some of the songs here, plus the lyrics. Favourite parts will be hilighted in pink. (Wait for the Imeem players to load, thanks.) 我讨厌阴天的风 冷得那么刺痛 只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞 昨天的风筝在角落 被谁丢到了路口 我很不想让你找到离开的理由 每一夜闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦 你微笑但是旁边的人不是我 天空切开一道裂缝 直接割到我心中 不想装作脆弱 也不想爱得懦弱 其实我非常爱你不想失去你 难道我没有权利说我不愿意 你给了他的吻 虽然只有余温 可知道我多渴望抓住你的心 我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心 我每天假装开心害怕你离去 可不可以任性 求求你不要去 藏在我心里最后一句 其实还爱你 可不可以任性 求求你不要去 藏在我心里最后一句 其实还爱你 淚水 將我淹沒 到底誰該難過 究竟 是誰放掉 這段感情我才終於明白 辦不到的承諾 就成了枷鎖 現實中幸福永遠缺貨 請告訴她 我不愛她 笑著難過 自我懲罰 想終止這一切掙扎 橫了心 說真心謊話
別告訴她 我還想她 恨總比愛容易放下 當淚水堵住了胸口 就讓沉默 代替所有回答 我才終於明白 辦不到的承諾 就成了枷鎖 現實中幸福永遠缺貨 我不愛 我不痛 我不懂 我的心 早已掏空 真心話 言不由衷 別告訴她 我還想她 就讓沉默 代替所有回答 Haih. So nice right. Got more, but I don't wanna upload them yet. Maybe next time. See how. xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, February 26
at 6:01 PMboy, i want to stop thinking about you too.
but my heart won't let me. all i wanna do is to stop thinking about you. but my heart just doesn't wanna let go. what do you want me to do? xoxo, you know you love me at 4:00 PMhey. it's raining outside now. damn heavily. remember what i said about the rainbow yesterday? i'm hoping it'll come soon. claire ahgong showed me her cuts today, haha. and hers are freaking small la k. walked home in the rain. lazy to take out my umbrella. walking in the rain while you're crying is fun. nobody can see your tears. i wanna see the rainbow in my life soon. i pray that it'll come.
xoxo, you know you love me at 10:55 AMHellos(: In Mac lab now. Mr Sng is busy teaching. I'm here blogging. Super sian. Was texting Junhan. Then he never reply, that anal gay chicken. Retarded funny day today. During recess Gina said Junhan's period came already. Then Junhan went around asking people for pads. Then he say he want 45cm Whisper pad. Then he went around asking, then Minqi told him Kotex good. Then he said he looking for 45cm Kotex pad. Damn funny. IT now is damn funny la. Afrah, Clarine and Jeri swapped their shoes around. I can't, because I have the smallest feet among the Retards. Then Afrah's holding Jeri's shoe now. Her hands are gonna stink later. JUNHAN IS A ANAL GAY CHICKEN. I told him to go 7-11 buy a packet of Kotex pads with wings, then use the wings to paste all together. Hahaha. Nevermind. That gay chicken won't read my blog anyway. Mr Sng showing us videos. Damn funny. He admitted he's biased. And has nothing against ahlians and bimbos. And he says they're quite attractive, esp. when they're dumb and brainless. Damn funny. The video damn funny. Ahlians or bimbos smarter. ROFL LA CANNNNN! Jansen just showed us this other video. Damn sad, but damn romantic. xoxo, you know you love me Wednesday, February 25
at 7:44 PMwhoa. the rainbow just now was so beautiful. after such a long period of rain, i didn't expect to see a rainbow. i guess this goes back again to the cliched philosophy: "you have to endure the rain if you wanna see the rainbow." it's very true, i guess. i mean, not every storm can produce a rainbow. but sometimes, we get so caught up in the rain that we forget to hope for the rainbow. it's been raining for the past few days already. quite a mood-dampener. but if you get so caught up in thinking about the rain, you'll forget that if you endure the rain, endure a few rainstorms, there'll be a beautiful rainbow. of course, the rainbow never lasts. nothing lasts forever. all good things must come to an end someday, won't they? when you hold hands, saying "it's forever, baby.", when all those songs say "you and me, we're gonna last forever." it's not true, isn't it? because there is no such thing as forever. so, like the rainbow, treasure it while it lasts. there will be othr similar ones, but nothing exactly like it. endure the rain, wait for the rainbow. but when you finally see the rainbow, don't take it for granted that it'll always be there. it will clear, so seize it while it's still there. all the best things in life are fake. xoxo, you know you love me at 5:24 PMFinally got the mood to post. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE AHGONG. i love you [: HAPPY 2ND MONTH WEIQI KOR AND JINGRU! don't worry too much about the situation now kay. it'll turn out alright (:
First period. Afrah returned me my old pink BFF. Nevermind. I've got a new one now. Switched the insides of the old one and new one underneath my table. I think Gohweiqi saw uhs. -.- Then during Maths Afrah gave her chair to the trainee teacher, because the OM don't wanna give her a chair for the teacher. Mdm Tang gave Afrah her chair, but Afrah gave the chair back to Mdm Tang, cuz' Mdm Tang is pregnant, after all. She sat on the floor. ROFL. Then she leant her head back against Asyiqin's table, then when Asyiqin moved her table Afrah was falling all over the place. ROFLLLL. Then Mdm Tang saw her sitting on the floor, then she was like,"Girl ah, take my chair. Never mind one." (Two months already and she can't remember our names. Ms Chum has taught us Science for about a month and she already knows my name. Again, it may be because my Science homework is always late.) During Home Econs we went up to the Level3 computer lab. On the way up, ran into Weiqi Kor. He was carrying his bag and walking around aimlessly. Then he saw me, and asked where we ("we" being the 20 people taking Home Econs this semester.) were going. So I told him that we were going to the Comp Lab to do Home Econs. I asked him what he was doing wandering around, since it was 12.15, and NT ends classes at 12.40. Called him a juvenile delinquent (: Then he said he come with us walkwalk. Then after we walked past the staircase he say byebye to me and left. -.- After school, had History mini-lecture about SBQ. So cool. Everyone was sitting on their tables around Mr Lee's laptop while he talked. Hahaha. Yeah. I guess that's about it. Going to spend time with my slim hotpink diamante-decorated electronic BFF - my iPod. More later. (: the best things in life are all fake. xoxo, you know you love me at 3:45 PM I'm currently in love with the cute soot spirits from Spirited Away.YOU HAVE TO WATCH THE MOVIE TO SEE HOW CUTE THEY REALLY AREEEEE! Esp. the way they suck up to Chihiro, and help her keep her shoes.  SOOT SPIRITS ARE CUTE. ALL HAIL THE SOOT SPIRITS.(I'm blogging about soot spirits cuz' i have no mood to blog about anything else. and i'm trying my hand at being like gohweiqi. i'm trying to be bo liao.) But really uh. Soot spirits are dang cute. xoxo, you know you love me at 1:10 PMぎゅうぎゅうパンダおにぎり Now in IT lab with Krichelle Chio doing Home Econs. The air-con was super cold, then I was freezing. Then I asked Mrs Foo to raise the temperature. Then that stupid girl go say is HOT. -.- I was like... shivering la kay. Shivering due to heat. Right. Looking at sushi pictures. All Krichelle's fault. Wahahahaha. Krichelle is a stupid girl. HAHAHA. xoxo, you know you love me Tuesday, February 24
at 5:57 PMdon't feel like blogging. horrible mood. moodless. depressed. upset. nobody understands, even if they tried. it's something i can't even figure out. i can't get anyone to understand the way i'm feeling inside. then mr quek keeps asking me to talk to him, because SOMEBODY went to tell him what i did today. it's not that i don't want to tell him, it's more of i don't know how to. people ask what's going on. i don't know how to tell them, how to explain everything to them. moodless. i don't know what this feeling is anymore. i just feel so alone. this feeling inside, it's not something anyone else can understand but me. tried talking to the people i'm closest to. but even i don't know how to explain to them how i'm feeling. and even if i could explain it, would they understand? fuck this life i'm living. fuck everything around me. i just wish i could stop feeling so alone in this world full of people. but sometimes, all i wanna do is just to be alone. all i wanna do is have some time to cry and think things out. i can't even have that. i hate life. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- uploading photos to facebook : How to be a Twit.
xoxo, you know you love me Monday, February 23
at 8:25 PMexactly 11 more minutes. 8:36pm. just went on a walk around my neighbourhood, the exact route i walked with you a month ago. everything seemed like that very day. even janejoy was out. the only difference was that you weren't by my side, holding my hand and walking with me. kinda missed you. wish you were there with me. but i made a promise to myself to let you go and move on.
xoxo, you know you love me at 6:32 PMwhat is this feeling? i haven't quite let go. in fact, i'm far from it, it seems. but i'm beginning to. i still think of him. i still feel envious. and brokenhearted. that's the most obvious emotion. broken hearted. then i also feel happy for the girl. cuz' she's so lucky to have his love. then, on the other hand, i feel lighter. yet still very heavyhearted at the same time. crazy emotions. lighthearted and heavyhearted at the same time. then there's something that seems to be weighing me down. it's like i was this gigonormous mass of knots all tied together, some big, some small. and these knots keep weighing me down. one of those large knots has been untied. but yet, there's still a lot of other knots weighing me down. and it's up to me to go figure out what those knots are. it's a weird feeling, you know. i'm still not back to how i used to be, but i guess i will be, once i'm done untying all those idiotic fat knots. it's a weird feeling. like... you're lighter and happier, but yet there's still something weighing you down so you can't go back to your normal self again, regain your normal cheer, smile the way you used to. if this post sounds complicated, believe me, my emotions are 100000 times more complicated. just that for once, i'm at a loss as to how to describe them. for the first time, the expressive opinionated girl who knows the right word and expression for everything, and even when she doesn't, she illustrates them with metaphors; for once, that girl doesn't know how to express what she's feeling inside. but i guess that's what crazy mashed-up mixed-up emotions do to you. mine are probably more messy than a plate of spaghetti. this dumb post doesn't even describe half the things i'm feeling. and i keep talking on and on and on about the power of words. -.-
xoxo, you know you love me at 6:08 PMfor you shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free. John 8:32. (thanks da jie.) But it's reallyreally true. I'm glad I finally know the truth, even though it hurts. Cuz' the truth finally set me free. I feel like I'm entering a new phase of life, and it started right from the point that you told me who he liked. There is no better feeling in the world than knowing the truth. I'm ready for a new phase of life now. One that begins with letting go.
xoxo, you know you love me at 4:26 PM230209. It was supposed to be our first month today. When we were steading, I found myself looking forward to today. But now that we're broken up, it stills holds significance for me. I wonder if it still holds any significance for you? Or if the memories of 23 January still make you smile? Or if our relationship even meant anything for you? Today, tried hard to hide the tears behind my smile, and I almost succeeded until just now. Stuck in the car for 30min on my own, my mind unknowingly trailed to you. Yet again. And the tears couldn't stop flowing. It's exactly 30 days since that night, when you wrapped your arms around me and we sat together behind the door of my room. It's been precisely a month since that day when you wrapped me in your tight embrace as part of a Dare. I wonder if you still think of those memories, or if they've been tucked away in some forlorn corner of your mind? I wonder if those memories make you lose control the way they do to me? Haih. A month has passed. Did you even realise it?
xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, February 22
at 10:25 PMHaih. Mugging my Geog now and texting Dear. Then she text me text halfway then never reply already -.- Stupid Geog. It reminds me of that idiot Miss Liew. Nevermind. It's my first common test paper, so bo pian. Mugging away. I NEED FREE SCIENCE TUITION. I WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION WHEN MR CHONG TAUGHT D1 & D2, AND KINDA LOST WHEN MISS CHUM TAUGHT D4. Gahhh. I've got detention tomorrow. I'd better bring hairclips, unfold my skirt and pull up my socks. Or I'm looking at yet another detention. -.- From 1.50 to 2.50 tomorrow, do not text me, unless you want to get my phone confiscated. Cuz' I'll be in detention.
xoxo, you know you love me at 5:45 PMHello people(: Today was a real emotional rollercoaster for me uhs. Went for Xiyao. As usual, was emo, but hid the emotions behind a smile. I only lost control once when Da Jie sang Used To. I'm kinda proud of myself for being such a good actress and masking my feelings so well, especially in front of HIM. Huining and I kajiao-ed Yunrong today. Haha. We said he was ITE guy. Damn funny. Then I had to leave early cuz' I had to do a make-up lesson at Creative cuz' I missed yesterday's class due to the choral exchange. They went Vivo, I think. Without me. NEXT TIME YOU'D BETTER ORGANIZE ONE ON A DAY WHEN I CAN GO HORH. Anyway, I went to Creative. Sunday 1.45 class. GUESS WHO I MET???? DEAR. I got the shock of my life when Dear walked into the classroom. She didn't see me somemore at first! I had to text her and tell her that I was behind her before she turned around and saw me. -.- I didn't even know she started attending Creative! She didn't know either. But I've been there since P1. After class we ran in the rain together, went across the road to Forum to eat Macs' ice-cream together. Then we went Toys R' Us. She kept asking me questions about my relationships, stuff that I did NOT want to talk about. But I tried to answer her questions until it got too much to handle. Anyway, Toys R' Us was fun! Dear went damn random, and damn crazy over the angmoh kids, and the toys there. Hahahaha. Then sorta-camwhored. Cuz' I haven't seen her in three months okeh.  I look so fugly -.-  I like this photo. Dear looks so pretty.Don't worry, Dear. If I get into SYF (which I don't think I will), then I'll have to attend the Sunday class for a month plus. Then every week we can go Toys R' Us together and you can drool over the angmohs there. ROFL. I love my Dear. And I miss her. I miss Darling too. She made me so happy today. Being with her, walking around Toys R' Us and Forum hearing her talk about her plans to marry an angmoh in the future, it just made me so happy. I kinda forgot about all the sucky fucky crap that's happening in my life. Thanks, Dear. Meetup more often, k?(:
xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, February 21
at 10:21 PMToday had choral exchange at Tampines JC. There were about ten schools there. TPJC, our school, Nan Hua, Fuhua, Regent, Coral, CHIJ St Theresa's, Compassvale, Yio Chu Kang, and two more. I forgot which. Quite boring. Just watched other schools perform. TPJC was damn good. Their choreo also very cute (: Nan Hua's technique was good, but I didn't like their song. Got a lot of nonsensical noises like bubbling and idk what else. Fuhua was greatly improved since we last saw them at last year's concert, where they were guest performers. Regent was okay. So was Coral. CHIJ St. Theresa's singers had weak voices, and they sang with their throats, not their diaphragms, so there were a lot of stray and split voices. Yio Chu Kang did very well. They sang J'entend Le Moulin and Mononoke Hime, two songs our choir is very familiar with. They were conducted by Mr Chew, who is our choir's pianist. Their blending was damn good, no stray and sticking-out voices. Voices were strong as well. (: After that went for Greenhouse. Then took bus home, had tuition and slept. Then woke up and mugged. I'm mugging my Science now. Diffusion and osmosis. And I've still got balancing equations and compound chemical formulas. I was too busy talking to Afrah in Science class. After Science I still gotta do my Maths. The whole chapter 3. 3.3 especially. I wasn't paying attention in class, was too busy talking to Gina Aiai. I talk a lot. :D Just hijacked my brother's Biology Matters textbook. (I still wonder how my super-slack brother wound up doing Triple Science -.-) I think I'm going to mug now. Thanks to my Twits for cheering me up today when somebody kpkb and scold me for no reason just because she in bad mood. TWITS PBT! I love them. I am really going to mug my Bio now. Tag replies(: lianne: interesting as in? ROFL. wenhui: BOOOOOO!
xoxo, you know you love me Friday, February 20
at 10:00 PM (Can't get the stupid photo to upload properly.)I love my retards. five hearts beating as one, we've got that unbreakable bond. Thanks to them, for being there for me through thick and thin, for cheering me up when I cried and emo-ed, for putting up with me when I was being a total bitch, for sharing my happiness when I was happy, and most importantly, for accepting and loving me for the way I am. Thank you. (: Sat with Afrah today. Teased her about her "future husband". AHEMAHEM. But really uh, they're really damn compatible uhs. Even Clarine and ZhenYuan agree. I think everyone in 2D agrees with me that they're DAMN compatible. I'm talking about our dear chairperson and vice-chairperson, of course. Wahahaha. Yes, I know he has a girlfriend. BUT THEY'RE STILL SUPER SUPER COMPATIBLE OKEH. I was like, teasing Afrah by saying,"both of you are secretly in love with each other, just that both of you don't know it yet." ROFL. Damn funny la. Tag replies: yeejunne: bah, bah. riiiiight. Yixuan: what you guai?! you said you wanted to fuck miss liew up, down, left and right! wahahaha. my memory not that bad okeh. wenhui: hahaha. thanks for tagging, aunt. love you too. <3
xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, February 19
at 8:35 PMwah. this is paranoia i tell you. wtf la. people like yiyun who can talk on the phone, even 1500 SMS is not enough for them. I CAN'T TALK ON THE PHONE. yet she expects me to survive on a SMS allowance of 1500. what the fuck la. the phone bill came. my SMS 1926. my talktime 400min plus. i'm damn pissed la. if she wants to see my SMS bill go down, she should allow me to talk on the phone. she ask me to use the house phone. whenever i'm at home is when she's at home. the moment she reaches home i can't talk on the phone. so, common sense right, that i have to sms chat with people. then i always hold my phone, my sms bao by 426, she not happy. wtf. anyway, tag replies. all those tags that are visible, from oldest to newest. liyi: ROFL. help me get a new set of smileys and i'll replace that for you. xuan: okehokeh:D wenhui: <3>kylieee: nevermind. your fringe will grow. lesson learnt: blue-tack is evil. cindyyy: next time i take one unglam photo of you also! yeejunne: will try. thanks darling(: vanessa: smiling la, you ass. (: jeri.: teletubbies are cute! in a scary way. and amirul is a colourful character, isn't he? Yixuan: HAHAHAHAHA. vanessa: urgk???? HAHA. cindyyy: LOL! teletubbies cute okeh. :D vanessa.: reply liao la dear (:
xoxo, you know you love me at 6:17 PMMy phone auto-offed again. Sigh. Complained like siao, then Mum said that if my bill this month doesn't bao she'll get me a new phone. I think it bao-ed already lorh. She only gave me a 1500 SMS allowance, though I got unlimited SMS, cuz' I SMS that SOMEONE everyday. But, hey, I'm not complaining. That SOMEONE is fun to talk to. And very fun to kajiao. Hahahahahahaha. Yeah. Today was damn slack la can. After morning practice walked back to class with Joyce and Liyi and Jeri. Joyce and Liyi decided to take the long way, since 2B is in the block behind the 2D/2E/2F/2I block. Went in late for Science. Then Ms Chum talktalktalktalktalk, end period. Mr Quek came in. Slackkkkkkkk. After that was HCL. Must write compo. My compo was 99.2% crap. The other 0.8% was the word "我" which kept appearing throughout my compo. ROFL. Aiyoh, I fast-forward to the end of the day la. We were supposed to have Geog test. At first, the whole level was supposed to stay back for the test. I dunno what happened, but in the end 2A, 2E and 2F got their test postponed to tomorrow. At first Jason said must go library do test with 2B and 2C. So we all went out. Then just walked past 2E when someone said turn back, go back to class. Went back to classroom. Screamed vulgarities at Miss Liew with Mummy. Hahahaha. She's just like me - you don't like her angry. Like mother, like daughter. Then we played taiti with the guys with Mummy's SIA playing cards. Technically, it was only half a game. Cuz' we played halfway before a teacher came in. After that started Geog test. The teacher who invigilated us is a sucky invigilator la k. He just sat at the teacher's table lorh. You wanna cheat also can cheat. I don't think he can see lorh. Just sit there do idk what. Finished my test early, handed it in and went down to canteen to wait for Retards to finish. Ran into Joyce and Evan. Bought lunch, ate with Joyce. Then Mindy and Joelyn came along to complain about Miss Liew for a while before rushing off to buy their lunch. Then went home with Jeri. On the way out of the canteen, Weilin came to ask us about the Geog test questions, cuz' 2A's test got postponed. When I was walking out of school today, somebody called my name. So I turned around to see Weiqi Kor and Jingru. So I kept "ahem, ahem"-ing. Then Kor was like,"Need Strepsils?" I'm gonna strangle him la. I have no idea how Jingru puts up with him. xD. miss liew sucks. she needs an anger management course. she's fucking unreasonable la k. huining didn't copy joyce's paper lorh. si cong wasn't sleeping in her class lorh. and jason can scream all the "fucks" and "screw yous" and "cheebyes" and "pubors" in geog class and miss liew won't even say anything. but si cong just muttered one "wtf." and miss liew exploded like a volcano. that sponge also equally bad. i don't wanna talk about her can. she just ruins my mood. every morning i go to school and i see her face, my whole mood ruined already. aiai, what do sponges do? (:
xoxo, you know you love me Wednesday, February 18
at 10:34 PMThanks for finally filling up my tagbox, guys. (FINALLY.) I am tearing my head apart. I wanna get into SYF so much. But I think my performance during the audition was quite good already. If it's not good enough, I don't know what is. But if I get into SYF, there'll be practice on Saturday morning, from I think 8 or 9 am until around afternoon 2 or 3. That means I can't attend the 9.30 Creative anymore. And if I do, I won't get to see SOMEONE. And it's not just for one or two weeks. It's two months, until April15, which is the SYF opening date. It might be later. Eight weeks. That's almost one full term la. Wtf. GAHHHHH. But that SOMEONE told me not to worry, and that if I get into SYF it's okay. (Can't remember exactly what he/she said, but I know it's sweet(: ) Then he/she said we still got term 3 and 4, and Sec3 and 4. But what if by then, our relationship isn't what it is now? Gahh. I am thinking too much. I need angsty rock music like My Chemical Romance and Fall Out Boy. And a good nap. I am sleep-deprived. (I was so tired that yesterday, I did the most amazing thing. I slept at 6.30pm, woke up at 11pm, mugged for a while, then slept again at 12.30 -.-) I love Mummy and BFF and Smelly Fat Byotch. (: I love Ichigo-jie and Junchao Jie and Girlfriend. (: I love Miss Chio and Qinaide and Munchkin. (: thanks to all these people for making me smile today. I love you guys. and to that fucking ccb, fuck off, pubor. lay off my gans, esp. mummy and jie. do that again and i'll rip your conceited head apart. try me. More tomorrow (:
xoxo, you know you love me at 4:20 PMLife is so ironic, isn't it?' I just went for maths remedial voluntarily, and ended up teaching Bernice how to do 95% of the questions. A year ago, my Maths was decidedly the same standard as Bernice's, despite my maths tuition. We used to be remedial partners, attending every single Maths remedial together. Now, one year on, my Maths has improved so much that I'm actually able to teach her how to do questions now. I know my Maths can never be as good as Jeri's. Or Cindy's. But I'm slowly improving. And that's all that matters, really. It's funny how things can change so much in the span of 365 days. A year ago, I had just spent a month in nchs, and was still decidedly lost. Also, I had no idea how to fold my skirt, though my socks were decidedly low. A year on, I'm actually helping people get around, and my skirt is above my knee. -.- On a completely random note, the trees in my neighbourhood are now all botak, and the roads in my neighbourhood have leaves all over the place. Anyway, today was a damn funny day la can! 2D is such a random class. I guess for the first time, despite all the frustrations I have with my class, I have to say that I love it. During Geog today, Wenhui started talking about Teletubbies. Then before long, everyone started contributing to the Teletubby discussion. Yes, I mean THESE Teletubbies.  Haha. My class is damn random. Then during last period, everyone was throwing newspaper balls around while Mr Quek droned on in the background about Total Defence and some boring shit. Amirul hijacked the newspaper balls and did some damn sick things with them la. Firstly, he stuffed them down his jacket to look like boobs. Then it looked decidedly fake, so he stuffed them down his shirt. ROFL. Then after about ten minutes he got sick of boobs, so he stuffed one ball down tummy area of his jacket, and the other one into his shorts. LMAO. I don't need to say why he stuffed them into his shorts for right. After that he stuffed them down his butt, I think. To make his butt look damn perky. ROFL!!! You may find it immature, but everyone cracked up like siao. It felt good to laugh wholeheartedly again. Thanks, Amirul. And whoever provided those newspaper balls that made my day. I swear, I love 2D. Teletubby discussions and sick jokes and all. (I'm reminded of the day when iforgotwho kicked Amirul's thing twice. Idk why. I guess because that made me laugh too.) I've got photos of Amirul with boobs! I wonder if I should upload them and humiliate that guy. Mummy's got photos of Amirul's big perky butt. I should get them from her. [edit] Mummy's uploaded Amirul's perky-butt photos and boob photos on her blog! If you're interested in seeing 2D's vice-chairman at his worst, go visit her blog! Wahahaha. [/edit.] 我这一辈子都会记得，你曾经爱过我
xoxo, you know you love me Tuesday, February 17
at 6:59 PM愛しています。 がどのように変更されますか？ 何もない。だからだよ。 xoxo, you know you love me at 6:24 PMHAPPY ONE YEAR RACHEL GIRLFRIEND. :D i love you/ Today was a funnnn day :D Mdm Ngo didn't come, so spent the normally boring Art period slacking with Retards! I swear, I love them so so so much. Camwhored a little with Afrah, cuz' we were sitting on the floor, and the stupid relief teacher for the second period was half-blind. Will upload the photos when the stupid Blogger Image Upload can work. [edited 18Feb] Photos uploaded!   [/edit] Anyways, after school went Compass with Clarine and Afrah to buy the stuff to make cheer props. Bought lots of paper, silver paint and two paintbrushes! Photos taken during slack time(:  Clarine and the remnants of the hard white paper we had left. I look retarded. And my skirt doesn't look that short. Afrah being retarded. Wahahaha. I look damn fat. And Afrah's skirt looks damn short, though if you full-size it you'll realize that hers is knee-length, whereas mine is above knee. (Meaning that I'm short. >.<) Standing on chairs to take this. I look fat, okeh. And I need a bigger blouse.[/edit] 2-Dynamites will get to see our masterpieces during Wednesday's cheer practice during PE! I wanna sleep la can. So tired. Played Solitaire on my iPod last night until 12.30. Which reminds me - my iPod needs a charge. I used it to blast music from my class's sound system after school. :D More later. Plus photos. faking a smile. faking laughter. twelve days since i lost you. i love you.
xoxo, you know you love me Monday, February 16
at 8:05 PM500th post!  HAPPY 4TH MONTH TWITS!Not complete. Not all the Twits were there. Denise, Weilin and Evan missing. Had Twit lunch with them today. Joyce gave out squashed melted Toblerone. Then we SUCKED the Toblerone out! Photos are with Joyce. I'll upload them after I get them from her. I know the lighting of the photo above sucks. I edited the lighting. There's another one with better lighting, but I'm not uploading that cuz' I look fucking retarded. Today during choir Ms Yin lost her temper. But the choir finally sang well. (:
xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, February 15
at 4:01 PM230109 - 050209. i love you, boy. it's the one thing i don't wanna admit. though it's hurting me, i don't want things to get more awkard between us. but i still love you, more than anything in the world. 老师 said today, 不要为了一棵树而放弃整个森林。 可是为了你，我愿意放弃整个森林。我发誓。 i still love you. i still care for you. deep inside, i keep hoping that you'll care for me more than you care for the rest of the girls. that you'll treat me different. i guess i was wrong. you'll treat me just the same. you don't love me any different, yet that yearning and that hope still doesn't go away. don't i mean anything more than that to you? don't i mean anything special? or maybe it's just my wishful thinking all along. everyday, the memories of me and you replay themselves in my head. i can't help it, and i don't know why. everyday, it's you i think about every minute i'm awake. the memories just don't go away. like a catchy pop song, they replay themselves in my mind. and i just can't let them go. i can only keep screaming "fuck" at the world, and bang my head and hope to erase the memories. yet i can't erase them. i can't make the memories fade. i can't make them go away. as much as i want to, i can't stop thinking about you. i can't get over you. i can't face the fact that i'm still in love with you. i want you back, boy. i really do. i love you.
xoxo, you know you love me at 3:36 PMfuck the world. went for xiyao today. my heart got trampled on. tried not to show it. kept the fake smile on. it's gonna be ages before i smile wholeheartedly again. i am fucking fucked up now.
xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, February 14
at 4:17 PM just a short post to wish my readershappy valentine's day. i love you all. to the SOMEONE who gave me the rose today. MY ROSE WILL DIE AFTER YOURS. i will not lose to you. i will look after my rose. wahahaha. thanks to that SOMEONE. i think i'm finally in the mood for valentine's day. thanks yeah. you know who you are.
xoxo, you know you love me Friday, February 13
at 9:18 PMBefore I forget. Photos of yesterday's class cheer! All candid shots. I'm so gonna get killed by my classmates for this.  Cheer song lyrics! Wahahaha.  Junchao, Mummy and Michelle. I dunno doing what. Clarine and Afrah (she's hidden) teaching the boys the cheer. Rachel and Gina the Logistics People.Wahahaha.
xoxo, you know you love me at 6:44 PM495th post. Today was a super long and super eventful day. First of all, we got new timetables! Screw it la. I used to love Fridays, cuz' Fridays were super slack. Not only does school end at 12.40, which means two less periods, we have IT and Art on Friday. At least, we used to. Now there's a timetable change. This is the third one this term. Geez. Then after that during recess, witnessed a lot of Sec2 girls running around the classroom block screaming their heads off as they ran around to each class giving V-day gifts to their BFFs. I wish I was one of them. At least, I wish I had a V-day gift. Or someone to give it to. Nevermind. I'm getting a rose tomorrow from SOMEONE. Red one somemore. Wahahaha. I shall be evil and not post the true meaning of a red rose on this blog. But I'm giving him/her a red rose too! I just bought it. The rose looks so pretty la. Haih. Nevermind. I shall tell myself to be optimistic. There's still next year's Valentine's Day. I'm determined that it's gonna be a better one than this year's suckish one. Anyway, back to my day. After that went for Art. Never hand in Art work, which has been due since last week's Art lesson. Got scolded like siao by Mdm Ngo. Next time I stand outside the Art room. Actually, I don't mind. I'll be the first girl to stand outside. Yay. What an honour. I'm being sarcastic here. After that was English. Already finished my essay (Wahahaha. My England very powderful k.), so I chiong-ed the work that I owe Mdm Tang since last month. The 2.1 and 2.4. Was supposed to give her by the end of today. I finished 2.1, but we're supposed to use that book to do today's homework, and I couldn't be bothered to finish 2.4. I didn't know how to do from question 3 to 5, so in the end couldn't be bothered. Then after that went for lunch. Then went for choir. We took like... 1 hour to get our sound right la. Wtf. After that... SYF auditions. Ms Yin made us get into groups of 9. 3 from each section. Like... 3 Sop1s, 3 Sop2s and 3 Altos. I originally wanted to group with Liyi, but cuz' Evan grouped with Jeri and Jie Ting, so we couldn't find another Alto. Then we split. Liyi joined Bernice and Weilin's group. I joined Joyce's, Gina Aiai's and YeeTzen's group. My group consisted of: Joyce (The Sec2 one.) (Sop1), Joyce (The Sec3 one.) (Sop1), Nina (Sop2), Raina (Sop2), Jieyi (Sop2), Me, Aiai (Alto) and Yeetzen (Alto.) Got one more Sop1, I can't seem to remember who. SORRY UH! I got goldfish memory k - my memory span is 3 seconds nia. Then we went through White Horses and Turot and Kami, cuz' we were the second last group. The first group, consisting of Wenxuan, Ru Jun, Rachel Goh, Yining and such (all Sec4s) went in, came out. They came out, and said that Ms Yin tested them on Part O to the end of White Horses, and the second verse of Turot. The "csip ke fa" part. So we went through White Horses and Turot and abandoned Kami first. It seems that only Joyce and I are true to our sections. It's like... Jieyi is Sop2 for the other songs, and Alto2 for Turot. Then Aiai is Alto for everything else, Sop2 for Turot. I'm a pure Alto (2). Joyce is a pure Sop1. Wahahahaha. After that we went into the room for our audition. Ms Yin made us sing Part O to the end of White Horses, and the "csip ke fa" part of Turot. Wahaha. For Turot, I blasted the Alto2 part with Jieyi. Blastblastblast. Poor Joyce, she was the only Sop1 for Turot. Gahhh. At first she wanted me, Yeetzen and the Sec3 Joyce to sing solo, but then she realised that Yeetzen and I are same section (Alto2) for Turot, so she told me that I didn't need to sing. Is that a good thing or a bad thing???? Yeetzen cried when she came out of the audition. Haih. She must've thought she screwed it up. Gina, Rachel Goh and I went to comfort her. Talked to Twits while waiting for the audition to end. After audition had sectionals. After sectionals went Compass with Evan and Liyi. Cuz' Evan wanted to buy Cup Walker. At Cup Walker saw someone who reminds me of SOMEONE. Then cried a bit. Liyi comforted me cuz' Evan was in the Cup Walker queue. But Evan comforted me later. Walked around. The V-day situation was worse than last week. Now it's all over the place. WTF. No more mood to post already.
xoxo, you know you love me at 8:09 AMHey. In Mac lab now blogging. Somebody flirting with somebody. Oh God la. Right next to me somemore. Now the somebody complaining cuz he no Internet. Wahaha. Afrah and Clarine are pissed with me. Oh, god this sucks. Afrah's pissed. Clarine's pissed. I think Jeri's pissed. I have screwed up my life. Motherfucker. xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, February 12
at 4:57 PMwhatthefuck. Stayed back to do class cheer today. Wahaha. (whatthefook. Blogger Image Upload not working, can't seem to upload my images. I'll upload them when I get the chance to tonight.) Today got Maths test. I know how to do the last two questions, 4b and 5! I think I got correct. Even Jeri and Nicholas Lee and all those people damn pro in Maths didn't know how to do. WHEEEE. I feel so smart la! Wahahaha. Aiai got correct also. Aiais rule the world mannnn(: Then Krichelle didn't bring calculator, so we went to 2C to borrow. Managed to borrow from Joelyn. Then after that was going to return calculator immediately after test, but 2C was having HCL test, so Mdm Xuan shooed us away. T.T Went back again in between CME and Science. Then the Malay teacher made us return properly instead of sliding through the window panes. Then we were on the way back when we saw Mdm Chow walking towards us, so we hid behind the pillar and unfold our skirts and tuck our fringes behind our ears. After that we continue walking, then that bitch come and stop us. The convo went something like this: HER: Why you hide behind the pillar? Krichelle: We never hide. Someone call me. HER: Who? Show me. *walks towards the pillar there.* HER: *looks down* Why got no one one? Who leh? Krichelle: *walks over* Is not this side, is that side. *points at the other side.* HER: *walks over* Where got? Krichelle: Went back in already what. HER: *incredulously* A Sec1 talking to you? Krichelle: *nods* HER: For what? Krichelle: CCA. HER: Oh, really? What CCA? Krichelle: *eyes sliding towards me.* Choir. HER: *incredulously* Oh, really? You're in choir? Krichelle: Not me, *points to me* her. HER: *glances at me* After that was settled, that naggy old hag decided to give us a long nag about this year being streaming year and yadayadayada. Yala, you old hag. I already know which combo I'm gonna take. It's the worst combo, the only one I have any real interest in. I'm gonna take Lit, Chem and Bio. Chem is compulsory unless you take Combined Science, which isn't offered as an option for the first semester. You can only drop to Combined, you can't take it at the start. Then Lit is because I have no future in Geog and History already. And Bio is because my Physics is F9 standard. I will so fail if I go to the Physics stream. T.T I don't think that stream is very popular, unlike the triple science stream. Bloody bitch. After that she proceeded to ask us,"Where's your student pass?" So Krichelle went, all,"We just go and return calculator only, so don't need." "Which teacher?" I finally got a chance to speak la. "Mdm Teo." Glaring at both of us, she finally let us go back to our classes. Fuck her la. I don't see what's her bloody problem. She's a horrible vice-principal. Throwing her weight around like she owns the whole school. KNNCCB. Mr Tay was VP longer than she was, and he doesn't even act HALF the way she does. Bitch. After school did class cheer. Wahaha. Quite fun. Mr Quek very enthu. Unlike Mdm Siak. Mr Quek even did it along with the guys la. HAHA. He's such a cute and jolly form teacher la. Wahahaha. cuz' you're hot and you're cold, you're yes then you're no, you're in then you're out, you're up then you're down, you're wrong when it's right, it's black and it's white, we fight, we break up, we kiss, we make up. LALALA.~
xoxo, you know you love me Wednesday, February 11
at 9:49 PM -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------never thought not having you here right now would hurt so much. That's the truth I don't wanna face. Thanks, Da Jie. (: goodnight, world. :D
xoxo, you know you love me at 12:40 PM(wait for the imeem player to load.) I love this song. Dedicated to HIM. you used to talk to me like i was the only one around. you used to lean on me like the only other choice was falling down. you used to walk with me like we had nowhere we needed to go, nice and slow, to no place in particular. we used to have this figured out; we used to breathe without a doubt. when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see. we used to have this under control. we never thought. we used to know. at least there's you, and at least there's me. can we get this back? can we get this back, to how it used to be? i used to reach for you when i got lost along the way. i used to listen. you always had the just right thing to say. i used to follow you. never really cared where we would go, fast or slow, to anywhere at all. we used to have this figured out; we used to breathe without a doubt. when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see. we used to have this under control. we never thought. we used to know. at least there's you, and at least there's me. can we get this back? can we get this back, to how it used to be? i look around me i want you to be there. cuz' i miss the things that we shared. look around you, it's empty, and you're sad. cuz' you miss the love that we had. you used to talk to me like, i was the only one around, the only one around. we used to have this figured out; we used to breathe without a doubt. when nights were clear, you were the first star that i'd see. we used to have this under control. we never thought. we used to know. at least there's you, and at least there's me. can we get this back? can we get this back, to how it used to be? to how it used to be. (x4) Some lines aren't very accurate, but those lines in bold... whoa. Scarily accurate. Enjoy (: xoxo, you know you love me at 9:01 AMHey(: In my room blogging on the Mini. My head feels so heavy right now. Gawd. Didn't go to school today. At 6am, my head felt like those great big thirteen-pound bowling balls on a tiny little feather of a body. Coughing like siao now. There appears to be an amount of phlegm stuck in my throat that I can't seem to cough out. Add in the fact that it's that time of the month again. I am seriously screwed la. I've got an SYF audition on Friday and my voice sounds like sand. Die la. Thanks to all those people who poured in concerning words today. I'm feeling much better now. Had a talk with someone very close to me on the phone last night. Thanks. Though these were not the people I expected, it still means a lot. Whereas the people I thought mean a lot to me, and the ones I expected would tag, are still keeping quiet. Haih. Thanks a lot, Lara. Haven't talked to you in a long time, thanks for talking to me last night. It really helped. I wonder where I'd be without my dear friend Lara. xoxo, you know you love me Tuesday, February 10
at 7:50 PMi wonder what i can do to make people love me more. i wonder what i can do to make myself feel less alone. i wonder what i can do to feel more wanted. i wonder what i can do to make people stop rejecting me all the time. maybe if i disappear from this world with no goodbyes. maybe that's the best thing for all of us. maybe that's the best thing for me, for all those people who would rather see me dead. you must be very happy right? reading this post. what would you say, if i left today with no regrets and no goodbyes? what would you say, if i disappeared and left you there to cry? fuck the world.
xoxo, you know you love me at 7:23 PMHow does it feel like to be uncared for? That was a question Mdm Teo asked the class during a CME period. Back then, I didn't know how to answer it. Now I know. It's the worst feeling in the world. I don't expect you people to understand how I'm feeling, because I don't understand it myself. I don't know why I feel so unloved, uncared for, and neglected and unwanted lately. In choir, nobody talks to me anymore. Everyone's talking to Erica and Genesis. Nobody pays me any more attention. In class, I don't have any fixed set of friends. I talk to everyone. But nobody seems to accept me into their clique as one of them. I don't know why. I'm surrounded by tons and tons of people, yet I feel so alone and lonely. No one reads my blog anymore. No one cares. No one cares about how I feel. No one cares about my life anymore. Nobody cares about me enough to drop a simple tag "cheer up ok. i love you." except the people who did. Nobody cares. Why should they? I feel so alone. So unwanted. I should just go jump off a block of flats. Nobody wants me anyway. It's no use surviving. I wonder who's gonna turn up at my funeral? Nobody. I'm just gonna be a rotting corpse.
xoxo, you know you love me at 4:44 PMI don't know why I'm still blogging, it's not like anyone reads my blog anymore. I'm just ranting to myself. Haih. Came home from school around 11, cuz' in school was freaking drowsy and my nose was blocked like shit. Came home, then at 1pm went to sleep until now. I feel so much better. Except the blocked nose and dry throat, almost back to normal. Now eating my very, very, very late lunch. This morning had morning training. Was fucking pissed off. Pissed off at SOMETHING. Fuck. Then Gina keep saying Fuck during lesson time. She keeps using that word. I keep telling her not to, but she won't listen. I don't know what to say anymore. I'm washing my hands off her. I can only listen to her and her profanities, one after another. Fuck. Listened to my iPod, then found so many songs that I wanna post here. Forgot them after the nap. -.-
xoxo, you know you love me Monday, February 9
at 7:46 PMSneeze. Whoa. I am so down with the flu. Was sneezing like siao all through Science and English, the last two periods. Then Junhan also happened to have flu, so it was like, me sneezing like siao first, then when I stopped, he started sneezing. Then after he stopped, I started again. ._. Then after that Gina went, all,"Eheh, what did you and Junhan do together uh?" So I was, like, all jokingly, "Ran in the rain together." Which Gina replied to with a,"I think is you ran right? Then he ran after you and took his shirt off. Got abs anot?(:" WTF. After that ZhenYuan said,"Junhan and Janelle missing each other." Cuz' you know, when you sneeze a lot of times, means that someone's missing you. WTF LA. I'm going to make matters clear once and for all: THERE IS NOTHING GOING ON BETWEEN JUNHAN AND ME. THERE NEVER WILL BE OKEH. He will never like a girl like me. And I will never like a guy like him. Fullstop. End of story. Finito. Anyway, I ponned the "compulsory" English Drama thingy and Dad picked me up. Jeri saw me to the front foyer. So nice of her. After that went doctor, then went for lunch. Doctor gave me MC for tomorrow as well. But I'm feeling a lot better already, so I might go to school tomorrow despite the MC. See? I am pretty much a guaikia after all. I was never a paikia okeh. Well, maybe a little bit of a paikia. BUT I'M STILL QUITE GUAI OKEH. Yeah. He gave me medicine, like, a lot of it. There's even fever medicine in there, and I DON'T HAVE A FREAKING FEVER. -.- Yeah. Came home, took medicine, went to sleep. Slept from 3.30 until 7.30 liddat. Then when I woke up, Sleepy was sleeping next to me, his foot near my butt, as if he was going to kick it. Then went downstairs, my mum was sleeping on the floor. -.- Going for dinner now. Like, finally. Didn't have lunch until 3, and I'm not planning on delaying my dinner either. Stupid flu. My throat and lips feel dry as sand. Gahhh.
xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, February 8
at 10:00 PMOMGOMGOMGOMG. HE IS HOT. HOT. HOTTTTT. OMG.
xoxo, you know you love me at 9:39 PMFinally changed my blogskin after so long. Guess I needed a change. Going to shower now. I am sweaty, sticky and unglamorous.
xoxo, you know you love me at 8:59 PMAs Anthony said once, time heals all wounds. I hope that time can heal the wound completely. It's still numb. Nothing I do can seem to un-numb it. Actually, I'd rather it hurt so much, then I cry it all out, then it heals quickly on its own, rather than it stays numb, and heals slowly. I hope that as time goes by, the wound will un-numb itself, and begin to heal. I can only hope. But until that day, I can only do my very best to try to un-numb it, to try to speed up the healing process. How fast it heals, ultimately, depends on itself. I can't wait until Valentine's Day is over. No more painful reminders. Thankfully. Working on editing a new skin now to try to take my mind off things. Also, gorging on potato chips again.
xoxo, you know you love me at 7:59 PM I'm so thankful for you girls.The four of you really brightened up my day. Even though I didn't tell you guys about my problems, I'm so grateful to have such wonderful cousins like you people. BCF, remember? :D Went out with my beloved cousins today. Not all lah, just the four I'm closest to - Melissa Jie, Alicia, Alison and Peggy, went to celebrate Melissa's birthday. Mum picked up Peggy from NAFA at 1pm, then drove over to Park Mall to pick up Alicia and Alison after their church, then drove the four of us down to Central. Fumbled around for a bit before finding Clarke Quay MRT station. Waited for Melissa to come. Alicia took a photo of my back with a Burger king advertisement burger. After she came, wandered around aimlessly looking for somewhere to have lunch. Realized my phone's Bluetooth is seriously spoilt. Another reason to get a new phone. Ended up eating at this Japanese-Western place, forgot what it's called. Acted pro by reading all the Japanese kanji I know, from those on the menu to those on the walls! Wahahaha. Spent $110 on lunch alone, cuz' all my cousins are all great eaters. (Yet, miracle of miracles, they're all so slim. I don't have their good genes. ._.) Ate like... 4 pizzas. 3 plates of spaghetti. We shared everything. See? We're so close uhs(: Was intending to buy a parfait, but after seeing the final bill, we all decided against it. Melissa treated us to lunch. $110 eh! After that bused to Bugis. Went to Bugis Street, despite Alicia's whining and protests. Bought a new watch. Saw the bagpack I want, the ZINC type. I saw three. One is the cloth type, $22. The other one is the white leather type, $39. Then I saw one silvery-leather one in 77th Street in Bugis Junction. $58. Appalling prices. I shall get Mummy to buy me one another day. Bought diamantes also, and earstuds. That's about it. Went to Bugis to window-shop, then took neoprints and bought Peggy's friend's birthday present. I swear, I hate Valentine's Day. It's EVERYWHERE. Everytime I see it, it triggers a whole new set of memories. Screw it.
xoxo, you know you love me at 11:56 AMHey(: At home now, hiding in the toilet and blogging from the Mini. I am addicted to the Mini, Seriously la. It's so adorable and portable. What a pity it's black, not white or pink. Nevermind. I'm going to shower now, then going out with cousins for retail therapy. More later :D xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, February 7
at 11:33 PMTired. I am seriously dead beat lah. Bounced over from Uncle Willie's house to Alicia's house. Then played idk how many games of Solitaire, lost count. Goodnight, world(: xoxo, you know you love me at 7:24 PMhello dear readers! two days since the big breakup. i cant say i'm coping well, though i'm definitely coping better than i did yesterday, which is a real relief. i guess after a while the pain kinda numbs itself. but that doesn't mean the pain isn't there. it just takes on a different form. i'm not as angry with him as i was. in fact, i kinda understand where he's coming from now(: i guess it's because of the support, the love and the care i've been receiving over the course of the past two days - from best friends, good friends, gans, jies and kors alike. i'm grateful to be cared for. don't worry about me. i'll be strong. i'll fake a smile, even if it kills me. as gloria gaynor sang, i will survive. so please, don't worry about me kay?(: yep, i shall now end the emo part of this post. i'm now at my uncle willie's house in seletar (the old army camp there) blogging on my brand-new HP mini laptop! technically, it's smaller than a laptop and it's not mine, but who cares? it's like... 5 times lighter than my schoolbag la. i can just rip all my textbooks into ebooks and just bring this to school everyday. it's so mini k! yeah. went for retail therapy today, bought this super, super cute handphone strap, went to look at new phones, and bought a present for melissa jie. i'm celebrating her birthday with her and the rest of the cousins tomorrow. we're going out. more retail therapy(: i'm glad i have everyone. feeling loved and cared for... it's a feeling that makes you think you can get through anything. the 'anything' ranges from bad breakups, to tragic car accidents, to the loss of a loved one. so today, i'm thankful for all this love. and you know what? as the pussycat dolls sang, we don't need men. more later.(: xoxo, you know you love me |
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