Strumming Some Heartsrings

Strumming Some Heartstrings

at 3:06 PM

BORED BEYOND BOREDOM.

By now I've read through some blogs, listened to a couple of songs, and I WANNA GO HOME.

I can't download music onto my iPod cuz' I don't have my USB cable with me and this computer doesn't have LimeWire. I can't edit photos on Picnik cuz' I didn't bring my memory card reader.

Ohoh, I'm now looking for phones to change, though my line will be 1 year in June. My phone really super, super, super giam cai now, and I am sick and tired of the freaking lousy W910i camera that turns out half-baked shots.

My brother's saving his angpow money for his DSLR, and I will sponge off him. I'm saving my angpow money for a more decent phone.

I'm looking for phones with cameras that are 8 megapixels. I don't mind 5 megapixels, but 8mp will be best(: I don't really like touch-screen phones cuz' it's gonna take me eons to type out a text message, unless they're like the HTC Touch Dual, got a slide-out keypad for keying text messages.

Also, preferably Sony Ericsson. I don't mind LG as well. Nokia is also okay. I don't really like Samsung cuz' it's not very user-friendly, so...

Andand, it's a definite plus if the phone is chio and comes in white or pink, or is slim like my W910i.

I'm currently eyeing the LG Viewty (though common and quite old already), the LG Renoir (though my cousin has it and it doesn't come in white or pink), Samsung Pixon (though Samsung phones aren't user-friendly at all) for touch-screen phones.

For non-touch-screen I think I'll need to get a Cyber-shot phone if I insist on Sony Ericsson. I think C905 is the only one that fits my requirements - 8mp camera. It comes in PINK as well! Unfortunately, there are some black accents, like the keypad and buttons.

I'm also eyeing Krichelle's phone, the LG KF350 (ice-cream phone). Super chio la! Unfortunately, even though the KF350 looks extremelyyy pretty, it's features are notso good uhs. Camera is 3.15mp.

At least it's probably better than this lousy 2mp my W910i has. Though if I get it, I might as well get a Sony Ericsson.

Photos of all shortlisted phones(:
Click to view full-size.

Sony Ericsson C905. I couldn't get a picture without the words though, pity):

LG Viewty.

LG Renoir. Only comes in one colour.

Samsung Pixon. The Samsung advertisements claim there's a pink coming out soon. I hope it really does come soon.

LG KF350 pink. The white one is also not bad.

Any more recommendations? If there are, drop me a tag(:

Going to sleep now. More later.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 2:26 PM

Hey.

In parent's factory now, studied through my Science and Geog. Caught up on whatever I didn't understand in last week's lessons. Now I understand everything perfectly!

However, I'll need Jeri to explain to me the whole balancing-equations thing and the formulas of ionic compounds on Monday so I'll have time to practice it before the Science test on Friday.

Hey people, give me ideas for a new blog URL. I'm getting sick of jesuis-amour. Gimme ideas uh.

Clarine just SMS-ed me, reminding me to bring my vest on Monday so she can try, and asking me if I'm all right cuz' I've been looking glum these past few days.

(THANK GOD LEON'S COMPUTER IS SPOILT AND HE CAN'T VISIT MY BLOG.)

Or I would be SO freaking screwed.

AND DA JIE WASHED HER HANDS OFF US LAST NIGHT.

DA JIE, YOU CANNOT DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEE!

Gahhhhhhhhhhh.

Anyways, I cannot get any more bored. I am gonna be here in this boring factory until 4.30 with my mum, which means I can't have any private phone conversations.

Thank God she finally let me use the Internet on her laptop.

I discovered my blog link on her laptop. DOES THIS MEAN SHE'S BEEN READING MY BLOG?!

I am so screwed.

I need to change my URL ay-sap.

TEXT/IM ME WITH IDEAS. TAG ALSO CAN/

More later.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 10:38 PM

OMG.

I THINK I JUST SCREWED IT UP.

HE SHOULD NOT HAVE SEEN THAT.

DAMN IT.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 8:03 PM

for the sake of love, i will not hurt you by telling you what i typed in the previous blog post.

i understand it's not easy for you.

i will not hurt you.

for the sake of love.

even though it's hurting me so bad,

i will not hurt you.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 7:56 PM

Sigh.

Loneliness is the cause of my depression.

Yet you're always busy.

Always busy helping others, or else you're in school, or having tennis.

The only time you can chat is at night, and I can't chat at night. The only time I can chat is the busiest time of your day.

I don't want you to feel guilty for not spending any time with me.

But I look at Joel and Da Jie, and I envy them. Despite the fact that Da Jie is busy, she makes an effort to talk to Joel every night.

I'm putting in so much effort. I know you really like me, and you're just busy, that I can understand.

But why is it you can find time to conference call them, but can't find time to reply all my text messages?

I'm trying so hard to understand that you're just busy.

But what if it's not just about you being busy?

What if there are unknown reasons?

I'm doing all the initiating, all the chasing, putting in all the effort.

I wanna see you do the same.

I know I'm your first stead, and it's not easy for you.

But for me, can you make the effort?

I don't wanna feel lonely anymore. I don't wanna feel empty anymore. I don't wanna feel depressed anymore.

Yet you're too busy to even listen to me talk about my depression.

This afternoon, when I was so upset and depressed, you were out with your friends having fun, so I called Joel.

You don't even have time.

You don't know what's going on in my life.

You don't know what I'm depressed about.

I don't think you even had the teeniest inkling that I was depressed.

I really, really want this relationship to work out, cuz' I really, really love you.

But do you want the same thing?

Cuz' I can't be doing all the work.

You have to do something too.

Make me feel like I'm not wasting my effort cuz' you never reply my smses, please.

I know you're busy, probably too busy to talk to me.

But please, can't you just put in a little more effort?

I can't do all the chasing.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 5:36 PM

Hey.

Been feeling super, super down lately.

Super, super depressed.

Cried so many times today, all for no reason.

Underneath my smile, my world is caving in. I can't fake a smile and act happy any longer.

I cry and cry, but I hide the tears and wipe them away.

It's a horrible life, I can't keep it up much longer.

I can't even cry in my own home, imagine that.

I don't know what to do anymore. Nobody wants me. Everywhere I go, I'm left out. I'm inferior to other people.

I'm gonna chat with people now. Ciao.

[edit.]

Thanks Kylie. Thanks Yingxuan.

[/edit.]

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 9:44 PM

Hello people!

Last night, my feelings went outta control.

I think Leon kinda freaked out. He ended up calling Yifeng and Da Jie.

Then Da Jie freaked out on me too.

T.T

Anyway, I don't wanna mention it uhs.

(Stuffed kangaroos are cute. ^.^)

Private joke.

Bryan didn't come today, so spent the whole day sitting at his table with my beloved Ichigo-jie. (YuHan.)

YuHan today very hyper uhs. Very cute! (:

Anyways, today kena-ed inofficial detention by HCL teacher cuz' I owe her truckloads of newspaper reviews.

After detention fooled around in class with Mummy for a while, scribbling stuff on the whiteboard with the class marker.

Now the class marker no more ink.

ROFL.

Stood on tables again. Haha. I miss standing on tables. We did it that time during class deco.

(It's fun if the table isn't shaky. If the table's shaky it's just plain scary.)

Now talking to Weiqi Kor, Joel Kor and Jason.

I told Jason he dua pai, cuz' his DP is George Bush. Then he calls himself Bill Gates.

T.T

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 6:11 PM

愛しています

나는 당신을 사랑합니다

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 5:21 PM

Hellos(:

First day back at school after amazing CNY holidays.

Had Health checkup today, was forced to run up to second floor classroom BAREFOOTED to get my frig-ass glasses.

(Screw the glasses. Contacts rock. Now... somebody get me a pair.)

After that slacked like siao in English and Maths and PC.

After school went Compass with Mummy, Girlfriend, Bernice (Girlfriend/Fiancee) and Weiqi (Goh)

Ate at KFC, ran into Liangzhou, JunHan and a few other 2F guys there. Teased Liangzhou about his blubber.

After eating, Bernice left.

Then the four of us went to Popular to see CDs, pens, notebooks, cards, paper, files, manga and books.

I've got an idea of what to buy for Leon so he'll understand me better.

A handy little book called Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus.

HAHA!

After that went to Comics Connection. Mummy offered to carry my bag. I could tell she really regretted the decision later, carrying my heavy (at least 5kg) bag around Comics Connection in the narrow aisles.

After that sabo-ed Weiqi to carry my bag. Went to Sembawang to look at CDs.

Then went to the library to slack, ended up making a birthday card for Mr Chong.

HAHA.

Done, done and done.

Uploading my CNY Day 2 photos on Facebook. I'll post the link when they're done.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 5:37 PM

Hellos(:

At Gwyn's house, been here since 1.30 playing various card games.

Was supposed to go to YingXuan's house today with the rest, but this morning Mum was in a bad mood and didn't let me go. T.T

So far, we've played about twenty games of dai di, three games of poker and about fifteen rounds of blackjack with Monopoly money.

Using Gwyn's laptop to blog, but the Internet connection here is really freaking slow luh.

Planning to call Leon later, but that guy is always busy uh. T.T

Behind me, Sleepy, Alicia, Gwyn and Kelly are busying themselves with game after game of dai di.

After CNY I am gonna be so good at dai di and blackjack. They keep playing until I'm damn sian.

Somemore so noisy. The little kids are banging plastic containers on the floor and screaming and shouting and running about. Then the people playing dai di are making quite a lot of noise, esp. Sleepy.

I seriously have no idea where I'm gonna call Leon uhs. Everywhere is so noisy, and there's no privacy.

I've shortlisted the toilet, the kitchen and the master bedroom.

Kitchen is not an option. It's open without a door. No privacy.

Toilet. Echoey. And the conversation might carry due to the echoes the way the VCH acoustics work.

Master Bedroom? I'm not sure if the moms are in there ornot.

If not when I call Leon, he'll be hearing a lot of screaming, shouting, laughing and banging in the background.

Probably even wailing, if the noise carries on at this rate.

Sheesh.

I might go to YouTube and check out some videos, at the rate my boredom is going.

Seriously. You cannot get a minute of peace , or relax for a bit when:
1. Baby Giann is wailing and screaming her baby ass off.
2. Aderic keeps trying to sing pop songs, and ends up sounding like his voice is caught through the fan and a million other different filters, each coated with vomit.
3. Aderic keeps banging the plastic container on the floor.
4. Aderic keeps wailing Rainie Yang's Take Me Away into the container.
5. The people playing dai di keep talking about cards.
6. Aderic keeps running around with the container on his head and singing like he's constipated.
7. Gwyn's other baby cousin keeps wailinggggg.

THE KIDS ARE DRIVING ME INSANE.

Seriously.

I think I am gonna get a migraine. There is only so much noise my head can stand.

P.S. Giann is crying now. *groans*. Great.

P.P.S. She just went out of the room. Now all we need to do is get rid of Aderic and the dai di people and everything's perfect.

P.P.P.S. ADERIC IS NOISYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Somebody save me, please. My poor head is calling.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 10:53 AM

Morning of the second day of CNY.

Just realised how dead I am.

My homework is uncompleted. Untouched. From last Monday's maths homework, to HCL homework, all untouched!

Die-ed.

Uploading the CNY camwhore photos onto Facebook now. Will try to upload later.

More later(:

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 3:19 PM

Love letters are so yummy :D

Too bad Melissa's house doesn't have those spicy prawn rolls I am a sucker for, or I would've polished off the whole container by now.

Nevermind. Love letters rock!(:

:D

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 2:49 PM

Hellos(:

Out visiting!(:

At my dearest cousin Melissa Jie's house now, blogging on her Fujitsu Lifebook, and listening to the songs on her iTunes.

Right now it's Next Plane Home by Daniel Powter.

Haha. Logged into MSN also, but nobody's online. Everyone's out visiting.

Just now went to my uncle's house, and met Andrea. Got to camwhore with her! Finally uh. I see her like... once or twice a year only. I love her tons.

Will upload the photos tonight when the relatives come to my place(:

Trainwreck by Demi Lovato, I'm Scared by Duffy, Stupid Mistake by Gareth Gates, Wordplay by Jason Mraz and Beautiful by Jason Mraz are very nicee!(:

Alicia's behind me, lounging on Melissa's bed and reading New Moon. Sleepy's next to the window and reading a book. Little Giann is sitting on the floor with Wendy Aunty playing with a set of poker cards. Haha!

Everyone else is eating lunch in the kitchen or stuffing their faces with bak kwa and pineapple tarts outside.

Mum just came in to ask me to eat lunch, but I intend to forgo lunch. I'll just munch on all the yummy CNY goodies if I'm hungry.

:D

Way to not put on weight - skip lunch. The snacks will be your lunch. HAHA.

Was texting Jeri just now. I love her man. She's awesome. She reminded me to look at the happier side of things, that for every emo thing there are at least three other un-emo things.

She's such an amazing friend. I'm really glad I have her(:

Hinder's songs are so nice(: Esp. Without You, Use Me, Better than Me and Island In The Sun.

Haha! Melissa's iTunes songs are nice(:

Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat is so niceeeeeee!
"i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend"

Haha!

Nice songs:
Neglected - Katharine McPhee
Home - Katharine McPhee
Dangerous - Katharine McPhee
Tu Amor - RBD
Summertime - Leona Lewis
Spotlight - Jennifer Hudson
Beauty In Walking Away - Marie Digby
Unfold - Marie Digby
Stupid For You - Marie Digby
Happily Never After - Pussycat Dolls
Gravity - Sara Bareilles
Pretend - Sara Bareilles
Clair de Lune
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
从新爱 - 周杰伦

Hehe, long list of songs(:

Now Alison and Gwyn are playing Monopoly ehs.

Just now played with make-up with Alicia. HAHA!

HAPPY CNY!

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 10:15 AM

JERI.

AFRAH.

YIYUN.

LEON.

i love you people<3

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 9:29 AM

haih.

i know he doesn't read my blog, but i'm going to try to express my feelings in a way.

i'm trying so hard to be patient.

i'm trying so hard not to let these feelings overwhelm me.

i don't know why i feel so empty, so down.

when i'm with you, everything feels right. everything feels complete.

it's when i'm away from you that i can't cope.

don't think of it as hurting me. i don't want you to be afraid to hurt me.

it's just that...

when you're not around, i feel insecure.

i wonder if you really do love me,

or if you're with me just because.

i wonder if you really do want me the way i want you,

or if i'm just there to fill up space.

i wonder if you find my constant text messages annoying,

cuz' they're all there cuz' i miss you.

yesterday you told me that you love me, it goes without saying, and that you would always take care of me.

but today i'm here wondering if you could just tell me you love me more.

it wouldn't hurt to say you love me once in a while.

i know you don't really know that, cuz' you've never really had a stead before.

that's why i'm trying so hard to be patient with you.

i wish you were here by my side all the time.

i don't have to feel empty.

yesterday dj asked me,"you're his. what's there to worry about?"

you know what?

i wish i knew.

i wish i knew the cause of my insecurities, the cause of my constant worrying that i'm not good enough.

i'm so glad i found you.

but sometimes i wish you could just be a little more proactive. i can't be doing all the work in this relationship, i'm getting tired.

haih.

don't mind me. this post is just full of endless ramblings. it's just that i'm so down and so emo these few days, and i dont know why.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i realised i want his attention so much. haih.

OHOH!

Check out this forward I got from Byotch :D

"WHY BOYS AND GIRLS MAKE OUT"
You know that every night before you go to sleep there is someone of the opposite sex thinking of you. They want to kiss you, they want to be with you, they are always thinking about you, this is all true.

ADVICE TO GUYS:
When she acts shy, say I love you.
When she runs away from you, chase her.
When she pouts her face near yours, kiss her.
When she kicks and punches you, hold her tight.
When she's silent, she's thinking of how to say I love you.
When she ignores you, she wants all of your attention.
When she pulls away, grab her by her waist and never let her go.
When you see her at her worst, tell her that she's beautiful.
When she screams at you, tell her you love her and that you mean it.
When you see her walking, grab her by the waist and give her a kiss.
When she's scared, hold her and tell her everything will be okay cause she's with you.
When she looks like something's the matter, kiss her and tell her not to worry.
When she holds your hand, play with her fingers.

So cool right? (:

Haha. Thanks Byotch.

Trying hard to lift my spirits and not stay down.

Haih/

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 8:17 PM

Havent updated for a few days eh.

My tagbox is pretty dead too uh. T.T

Anyways, taking this chance to wish all my dear readers a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Having reunion dinner now, the relatives are at my place. I just hogged my brother's external drive and watched Mamma Mia. Then now the guys are upstairs using the two comps and Rashid's laptop to chiong Maple.

I'm here hogging the laptop watching Lets Dance! on Channel U. THE SMALL BOY IS FREAKING CUTEEEEEE

Anyway, quick update of what happened over the course of the past few days:

FRIDAY, 23 JANUARY.
Best day of my life. They came over, we had a lot of fun talking and eating. JOEL ATE ALL THE FRIES. T.T

After dinner went for a walk around my neighbourhood with Leon, and Da Jie went to walk with her Joel. Yifeng and Sleepy cycled around, and I have no idea what Ye Xun did.

Anyways, he asked a very, very important question when we were walking. AND I SAID YES. Of course I said yes. I'd been waiting for him to ask that question since he found out on Monday.

Held each other's hands, and because we walked around the same area, we kept running into Da Jie and her Joel. Ran into Yifeng and Sleepy on our bicycles once.

Then went up to my room, played a few rounds of Truth or Dare. AND SOMETHING DAMN THRILLING HAPPENED BETWEEN DA JIE AND HER JOEL.

OEI DA JIE, YOU BETTER LAST LONG WITH JOEL. ESP. AFTER YOU TWO DID THAT THING.

Haha.

Leon and I completed the second stage as well. So happy. :D

Dawn and WeiYe came over, then played awhile before they both went home. Cuz' after dinner Yifeng was like,"Eh, next time get another girl ley. You and Leon, Yiyun and Joel, then left me."

So when Dawn and WeiYe came over I was like,"Yifeng uh, see I so good. Not one ley, two girls eh. You got choice somemore."

ROFL.

Then after the Truth or Dare game we were advertising WeiYe. Da Jie went, all,"this one smart one. NJC ley." WeiYe looked pretty clueless, so I asked her if she knew what was going on. She shook her head, then I was like,"We're advertising you ley."

She blushed uh. Super funny!

After that kena scolded by Mummy. Emo-ed until 11+. Leon was there with me the whole time.

I am so grateful to have someone like him :D

SATURDAY, 24 JANUARY.
Woke up at 9.30, went into Malaysia. Endured 1/2 an hour driving lost around Woodlands looking for a petrol kiosk, and then endured another 3-hour long car ride into Johor Bahru by the Causeway. (Jammed like siao as usual.)

You know what's the sure way to survive any boring car ride into Malaysia?

A few Low Kay Hwa books, air-con, an iPod nano and a comfortable leather seat.

Actually, you don't have to get Low Kay Hwa books, any interesting books work just fine. But I prefer romance novels, they keep me on a high.

Went into Malaysia for Daddy's clients' lunch at this nice high-class restaurant's grand ballroom, except that 70% of the people there were inconsiderate smokers who kept smoking in the ballroom, so the whole freaking ballroom REEKED of cigarette smoke.

After that went shopping at Jusco/Aeon, without much success. Only managed to get a long vest and a white short-sleeved jacket. And loadsss of groceries. And a packet of stickers in Japanese characters and a pack of Sharpie permanent markers.

I initially wanted this pack of four candy bracelets, three slogan tees and a pair of slippers, but the slogan tees and bracelets, we decided not to go back to the shop, and the slippers didn't have my size. Also, I wanted a pair of white wedges, but they also didn't have my size.

Haih.

Nevermind, I got loads of gum(:

Came back into Singapore by Tuas and SecondLink, so we didn't have to endure the 3-hour jam. One hour nia(:

Came back, texted Da Jie and Leon to check if they read the letters I gave them on Friday.

SUNDAY, 25 JANUARY.
HAPPY 1ST MONTH *****&******!

Anyway, this morning woke up at 8.30 and went to Bedok Reservoir to walk(:

That place is fantastic. At 9.30, there were only a few people there. The leaves were falling, and the breeze was so fantastic. It's hard to find that kind of places in Singapore.

Anyone who's sick of shopping malls and the typical crowded parks and MacRitchie and Pierce reservoirs, visit Bedok Reservoir in the morning! Super amazing uh. Make a date with your stead/siblings/family/iPod/MP3 player/track shoes and visit it!

It's near Damai Secondary, I think. I could see it next to the reservoir at one point.

THE PLACE IS SERIOUSLY NICE UH.

After that went to watch Red Cliff II at Junction 8. Then came back, texted Leon, but he was busy so he only replied my texts once an hour. Ended up reading my teens and Seventeen magazines.

Then the relatives started pouring in. Had dinner, turned Mamma Mia on.

Done, done and done.

So there you have it.

More updates when I have the time((:

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 5:28 PM

Hellos(:

CNY celebration in school today!

Spent the first two periods sitting with Krichelle and Gina. Then went for assembly. Then homed. Now waiting for Yiyun, Leon, Joel Kor, Ye Xun and Yifeng to come over(:

So bored. And so impatient.

Haih.

Talking to Weiqi Kor on MSN now. He's keeping me entertained. Haha!

あなたに。
あなたが誰かを知る。
私私はあなたの愛を言うのはとても難しい。
私はいつもすべてを開始しています。
それの取得疲れるにもかかわらず、これで唯一のはしばらくしている。
ええと私が主導して開始することを願っています。
愛しています。

My Jap not that good. That one is Google Translator translate out one. ROFL.

Waiting for them. IMPATIENTLY.

I am the opposite of patient. Keep that in mind.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 5:54 PM

Hellos!(:

So long since I last blogged.

I'm gonna delete some of my old posts, which I find are of no absolute credit to my name.

Loadsa photos to upload.

First of all, my zhng-ed iPod! I zhnged it like... two weeks ago uh.

It looks so much chio-er in real life okays! And the paper it's lying on was my homework. xD.

Yesterday's class deco.

I'm standing on the table okehs! Clarine is sitting there. And yes, that thing on the table in front of her is her skirt. She's wearing her shorts only. T.T And the guitar on the table is 2D's property. xD

Some old photos which I never got round to uploading on my blog, though some of them have been on my Facebook for eons.

Choir concert! (28Nov)

Me and Liyi after Choir lunch before concert preparations, outside Compass 7-11. I look hideous. T.T

Me and Jeri in Yoshinoya during lunch. I love this photo :D

Me and Bernice. Bernice's eye-makeup do until very chio right! Haha.

Twit Mi, Do, So and Re. Joyce, Liyi, Me and Evangeline in the dressing room :D

Me and Jeri in "Snow White" choir gown.

Me and Liyi in Yoshinoya! I look hideous. Eww.

Me and Joyce(: Looking hideous as usual.

We were sitting in a circle on the floor outside Compass 7-11 cuz' there were not enough seats for all of us. Liyi, Evan, Joyce, Me, Jeri, Gina. And the one taking the photo is Yeetzen. The one blocked by Liyi's arm is Dorisa.

Haha. It's quite long ago, these photos. 28Nov. Almost 2 months.

I've gotta go to Chinatown soon. Going to start deleting some old posts now.

Ta!

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 5:12 PM

FINALLY FOUND THE FULL VERSION OF JS'S 需要!!!

LOOKING FOR THAT SONG FOR EONS NOW. YAY!~

NOW LOOKING FOR THE FULL VERSION OF 新生活 by 迷路病 and 解冻 by 芮恩. Also, 勇敢温柔 by 潘嘉丽 and PK by 梁静茹 and 曹格.

ANYONE GOT THE FULL VERSION OF ANY OF THESE SONGS DROP ME A TAG K? terimakasih :D

Back to song-hunting (:

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 10:37 PM

爱是一种需要，却不一定要得到
只要你觉得快乐就好
梦会温热眼角，让回忆像水草般缠绕
却总能让人勇敢不少

爱是一种需要，聚散却没办法预料
只能在心里做个记号
直到哪天遇到，还会是同样的味道
下雨也好驱风也好
心想着就能不会难熬

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 10:02 PM

Went around reading the popular girls' blogs again.

Life is not fair.

Why do some girls get everything - popularity, prettiness, good grades, steady stream of admirers, and excel in their ccas - when some girls get nothing?

They don't even have to work for popularity. They don't even have to work to be pretty.

Yet what differentiates them from the rest?

I wish I knew. Maybe then I wouldn't keep wanting to be one of them so much.

It sucks, knowing there's something out there I want so much but definitely can't get.

I want to be one of them. To be popular. To be cool. To be included.

Why is it everytime I want something I can't get it? But I get everything I don't want instead??

Really, all I want is to be popular. Liked. Cool. Included. One of them.

Why can't I seem to be?

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 11:53 PM

short post due to tired-ness (i feel like i'm gonna drop dead and fall asleep anytime soon. zzz.)

super, super eventful week this has been for me. i've been through so many emotional turmoils, it's hard to believe.

but i'm taking it one step at a time.

today attended my cousin's amazing wedding at the fullerton hotel.

it's amazing. everything about it was beautiful. the location was amazing, the ballroom was amazing, the dinner was amazing, and my cousin looked amazing.

when i get married, i want mine to be like that.

i want to get married in 9 years' time, then give birth 2 years later.

i want to have 10 jie meis, or maybe 7 or 8, then my husband can choose his own brothers. i want to hold it at the fullerton grand ballroom too. and that very night i wanna stay over in the fullerton.

(that place is beautiful. even the toilet was tres grande.)

i love weddings. they make me in the mood for love.

and i need to get in the mood for love again. maybe that'll help me get my blogging vibe back so i can post better updates and update you readers better on the state of my life.

CURRENT STATE OF THE UNION.
   IN OUT
true friends. fair-weather friends.
PMS: private-messaging PMS: pre-mestrual syndrome.
syndrome.
non-annoying people annoying, irritating people who go up to
   400% on the ah-nnoying scale.

Yeah, I know it's not as good as Massie Block's in The Clique, but at least it's informing you of what's going on in my life.

Ciao, people. My bed is calling(:

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 11:04 PM

I think I am damn friggin lucky luhh.

It's been a week since I got my third earhole, (next Monday second week) though it seems more than that with the stupid teachers walking around every morning during flag-raising in the quadrangle checking skirt and socks and Ms Tabitha standing in the middle of the canteen checking skirt and socks, and I haven't got caught yet.

THANK GOD.

Omg la. Thankfully on Monday and Wednesday I (being Publication Head) have to go collect the English and Chinese newspapers from the General Office after flag-raising so I can skip spot-check. Plus reach the classroom when our class hasn't even stood up in the quadrangle yet.

Every night before I sleep I hope that it'll rain the next morning so we can assemble in class and skip the spot-check, but I get disappointed time after time.

(Don't you just love the rain???)

I attribute the fact that I haven't got caught for my third earhole yet to the way I wear my earsticks in my first and second earhole. I cut it so there's like... not even 1cm left, a few millimetres of earstick left, then I push it all the way to the end, so all you can see is the pinkish end of my earstick in my earhole.

See? I'm so nice, I share!

Anyway, they never used to be so strict about attire until now. Last time if you kena caught for skirt or socks, just warning. Now must do CWO!

They never did use to have those DMs walking around the quadrangle every morning until now.

You know why? Because we've got a new vice-principal.

la sanglante tigre bitche. Just because she's short and ugly the whole school must be ugly along with her.

Screw it luh. She anyhow screw teachers along corridor because their class takes too long to line up (And have Jansen screwing her face like siao in ComicLife)

sanglante garce. Serves her right.

la bitche.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 9:36 PM

Hellos!

It seems like eons since I last blogged eh? So many amazing and notso-amazing things happened. I shan't elaborate on that.

I kinda lost my motivation to blog after breaking up with Junwei, so posts may be extremely slow.

What I shall elaborate on, is a veryvery meaningless topic.

Camwhoring in the Mac lab during today's IT period! Mr Sun sent the pics over this afternoon!(:

Camwhoring aside, I FINALLY GOT THE GUANGZHOU PICTURES. But no way am I uploding them here due to Blogger Upload's five-picture-at-a-time limit. It's like... 2GB worth of photos ley.

I shall upload them on Facebook and paste the link here(:

Now going to view them, ta!

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 6:07 PM

Hehehe(:

I just realised the Reunion Dinner theme song is 新生活 by MLB!

Yay. So happy. Going to hunt for it on 4shared(:

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 10:45 PM

爱是一种需要, 却不一定要得到. 只要你觉得快乐就好.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 9:38 PM

the broken heart will not bleed.

yes, it will not bleed.

Talking to T.Weiqi now. He's my new Kor.

So now I got Leon Kor and Weiqi Kor. Haha.(:

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 9:44 PM

Hey(:

Never blog updates for light years/

On Monday before choir went to get third piercing on right ear at Compass Bits and Pieces. Went there for lunch, then Bernice and Gina accompanied me to get the piercing.

Hehs(:

Now I shall do a random quiz, since it's been ages since I last did one. xP. I'm doing it to get my mind off something I don't wanna think about.

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Take A Chance On Me - A-Teens (err... o....kay....)

2. How would you describe yourself?
半熟宣言 - 杨丞琳 (dunno why the "ban" cannot key leh.)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Can't Behave - Courtney Jaye (o.O)

4. How do you feel today?
Empty - The Click Five (haha.)

5. What is your life's purpose?

来不及 - Hebe (idk why the "ji" cannot key. -.-)

6. What is your motto?
One Step At A Time - Jordin Sparks (so nice la. haha.)

7. What do your friends think of you?
太難搞 - BY2 (ROFL!)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Let Go - Kristine Mirelle (no link seh.)

9. What do you think about very often?
Forgive Me - Leona Lewis (huh?)

10. What is 2 + 2?
1, 2, 3, 4 - Plain White T's (YAY! Haha.)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
All I Need - New Creation Church Live Worship (She's all I need!)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
To Be With You - David Archuleta (OMG THIS IS SO SWEET LA.)

13. What is your life story?
Kiss The Rain - Hienie Dao & Yiruma (no link.)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hero - Mariah Carey (HAHA! I shall be a hero when I grow up!)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Crush - David Archuleta (hehe(:)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Just Wanna Be With You - HSM3 (this one also veh sweet :D)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Heaven (Candlelight Remix) - DJ Sammy (haha! at my funeral they play "heaven"!)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Angel - Natasha Bedingfield (really no link.)

19. What is your biggest fear?
缺氧 - 杨丞琳 (biggest fear to be short of breath, i suppose.)

20. What is your biggest secret?
他还是不懂 - S.H.E (haha!)

21. What do you think of your friends?
She's Like A Star - Taio Cruz (they're like stars!)

22. What will you post this as?
Stay Young - We The Kings (haha!)

Done, done and done.

Still hasn't taken my mind off the issue at hand though. ):

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 12:47 PM

Hellos(:

In Mac lab now with Afrah and Jeri and Clarine and the rest of the VERY rowdy people of 2Dump '09.

Jeri doing raunchy dance(:

MACs ROCK. SOMEBODY BUY ONE FOR MEEEE(:

Esp. a MacBook Air. :D

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 11:30 PM

Hello!(:

Today had CCA Orientation. Super fun! :D

Reached school at 7.45 exactly, then chiong-ed to Choir booth in canteen. Surprised Twits, they didn't expect me to be there since I've not attended the last 3 choir practices.

Hehe. The booth was done up very nicely, thanks to the choir committee(:

The cute little magnets that Leona made. They came with every sign-up for the audition.

The bigbig 'CHOIR' sign surrounded by a lot of "JOIN NC CHORALE(:" magnets.

The vanguard sheet board. I'm not sure if you can view the words even if you maximise the image though. o.O

The choir photos laid out in front of the booth!

BIGBIG "CHOIR" sign stuck to the canteen stall behind our booth.

Sign-up sheet! But this was quite early into the CCA Orientation. We collected a total of 37 names at the end of the day!

Sweets (free) and the biscuits (come with sign-up along with the magnet). We kept stealing the sweets(:

Haha. Quite fun lah. We kept screaming and screaming. Then my seniors went around ambushing anyone who happened to walk past the choir booth, and convince them in signing up.

Shouted and shouted, gave out brochures. HAHA.

Fun day(:

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 9:59 PM

Hehe. First day of school not bad(:

Form teacher is Mr Quek, also our English teacher. HE SUPER NICE CAN? Hehe. Can tell English is gonna be dead fun this year, just like last year with Mr Lin.

(Except we can't bully Mr Quek like we bullied Mr Lin, cuz' Mr Lin was a relief teacher.)

(Wahaha, Ziming, you know Mr Quek personally right? Hohoho. Did you tell him about how our class used to bully you a lot? >.<)

Jeri and Travis were out the whole day at SecOne Orientation Camp. I MISS JERI.

Ended up sitting back in our last year seating arrangement, with some minor changes, cuz' our class has a new addition - a girl named Krishelle who retained and came to our class.

(Is 2D really that bad???)

Got to see Jeri during recess, when she was on break. Five of us (Retards plus Asyiqin) went down to the old 1D classroom to reminisce. Then we went into the old first-floor toilet and camwhored for a bit.

I'll upload the photos some other time, cuz' right now I can't find my memory card reader.

Now watching MLB videos on the Milubing Powerlah! site. I'm watching the RazorPop TV one.

People always ask me why I say Nic is hot, since Sam is obviously hotter.

Yes, Sam is hotter. That I agree.

But I still like Nic more. Even I'm not sure why this is.

Two and a half years ago, in August 2006, when I watched the band for the very first time on SuperBand, I liked Nic immediately, though I found Sam hotter.

I DON'T KNOW WHY.

Probably cuz' I'm attracted to his kind of guy.(:

Anyway, enough blogging, I'm going to watch the video now. And probably search for my memory card reader.

[edit]

FOUND IT!

Now I shall upload the camwhore photos of us during recess :D

Me, Clarine, Jeri, Asyiqin. I look retarded.

Jeri, me and Clarine! Clarine's hand shook =.="

I love this photo! Everyone's squeezed together. Makes it oddly comforting(:

RETARDS!(:

I look retarded.

xoxo,
you know you love me

at 12:31 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

It's the start of a new book after the 2008 book ended on a high note.

Yesterday ewnt to ZhongHui's house for dinner, then we ended up playing cards and watching TV (The Little Nyonya and The Noose)

After that about 10.30 went down Xiyao for countdown, met the rest at Macs'.

Went up, and Jarrod started taupok-ing Marcus. Funny.

Then went in to countdown with the adults.

It felt so great, being there with people you love counting down and welcoming the new year. Was superrrr high, cuz' Cheeky and Yiting were all damn high and they all infected me with their high-ness.

Started blowing our party blower things into each other's faces. ROFL.

Then went down to the 24-hour indian shop for supper. Sat with YingXuan, Sleepy, Leon Kor, Joel and Skinnyjeans.

JOEL IS FREAKING RACIST. He was talking about Toblerone and Oreo. Then Leon was telling us about how scary his mum and sister get when they fight.

Homed at 2.30, slept at 3am(:

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you know you love me

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