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at 12:13 PM

Yay! Can blog today(:

Mummy bringing me go trim hair later, very messy. xD

Today never go Xiyao, cuz' Mum didn't register me for the new term.

So I've got one term free of Xiyao. Which I'm NAWT happy about. I won't get to see my jies (Chio jie didn't go too! Misery loves company(:) and I won't get to see everyone else until the Guangzhou camp (Yes, that includes HIM)

On the other hand, NAWT seeing him will help me get over him, which I have decided to(:

On a completely random note, go to this site:
http://www.manetas.com/pollock/jacksonpollock_by_miltos_manetas.swf
Super-cool! But gets kinda boring after awhile luhhs):

Anyways, I wanna go create a CSS skin, since Blogskins.com doesn't have any CSS skin with 10sections other than that "COME ON DJ PLAY THAT SONG" one. But that one is wayyyyy too common.

I've been searching Blogskins.com for nice images I can use to use above to the main bar, hope I can find something suitable yeahs?

Ciao for now!(:


at 9:17 PM

Second post of the day!

At Alicia's house, using her laptop to blog and listen to music, but plugged my earphones into her laptop cuz' everyone's making a right riot, and it's very hard to hear the music.

Yay! It's 因為是你 by 王心凌.

The mv is superweird, but whatever, I like the song. And I like 当你 too! But 当你 is an old song liao, it was on her first album. And 王心凌 has a nice voice ^.^ But I don't find her exceptionally pretty. I think Yumi from BY2 is cuter/chio-er.

But I can't sing her songs either, she's a soprano too. Sad):

Today went shopping at Takashimaya with Mummy, was supposed to buy a new schoolbag&new school shoes.

Converse was having sales, so we went to see the Converse stuff. Bought a black-and-white handbag that can fit A4 paper horizontally. Super-nice. And only $40 okays! Original price is $70.

Then bought a new water bottle, yellow Smash bottle. Sleepy bought this cyan bottle, the kind I always use, but it was the last one and he refuses to swop.

Blechhs.

So happy with my shopping(:

But ended up didn't buy school shoes. Nevermind, next Saturday go Kappa and maybe go Converse and maybe go (cheapskate, but Mum's choice) Bata.

And YeeJun guessed the song lyrics right! I love her!

Now change song liao, 最近還好嗎 by S.H.E.

Ciao people! I'll blog again tomorrow if I have the time(:


at 12:26 PM

如果有一天
我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天
我离你遥远
不能再和你
相约你是否会发觉我已经说再见

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说却害怕都说错还喜欢你


at 6:02 PM

So I ended up procrastinating this morning after all. GREAT.

Reached school at 7.21, but went in full uni cuz' I blatantly FORGOT that today is ACES Day. So dumb lorhs.

Anyways, today is the LAST DAY OF TERM 3!

How utterly fantastic is THAT? Unknowingly I only have ten more weeks until I'm done with my first year in nchs.

That is fantastic, because after that there's only two more years to graduation. 730 days.

From now until I graduate there are 843 days. Actually, that's a little freaky. Only eight hundred and forty-three days until my O levels.

Fah-ntastic.

Anyways, Teacher's Day celebration today was alright. Sat on floor between Bernice and JunChao, tio thigh&foot cramp for sitting on the floor for over 2hours. At least got air-con, if not I'll die.

It was SUPPOSED to end at 10.30, but they only let us got at 11.15. By 10.30 everyone was dead restless (Come on, you'd be restless to if you sat on a hard wood floor for 2hours straight.), then when the teachers were going up to cut cake everyone was like, rushing them up onstage so we could end earlier and leave.

Then when Mr Neo say got announcements the whole hall groaned. So funny. But when he was done he said "Leading classes stand up". But no one cared anymore! Everyone just stood up and left. So there was this HUGE human jam trying to squeeze through the 3 tiny glass doors (They should make one large entrance. Waste concrete building walls between the doors.)

Then Jeri, Rachel&I went around school looking for teachers to give the presents to. Went staff room, saw Ms Ng. Then Jeri gave her her present, then Ms Pey (the PE teacher) came along and said that me&her got the same kind of eyebrows - very special shape.

Now that Ms Pey pointed it out, kinda true. Besides, I never have to pluck/wax my eyebrows into shape. They ARE in shape. Though furry, like black caterpillars positioning themselves at a jaunty angle.

Then rushed back to Rosyth with Erica, Denise, Jeri&Rachel on 109. THERE WAS A HOT GUY ON 109! Yay!

Anyways, met the rest at the Gate1 void deck there. Then waited, waited, waited.

After that when they finally opened the gates all of us chiong in! Hahahaha.

Then after visiting Rosyth went Hougang Point with Stacey, KJY, LJY&Kemin cuz' YeeJun had to go home and chiong homework. But speaking of LJY, weirdly, I don't hate her as much as I used to. But she's not my BFF either.

Had Macs' with them, then Stacey,LJY&I walked around. But pretty boring. Then went to meet Sleepy at playground (he was with his friends) and then walked to bus-stop with Stacey like we used to every day last year.


I miss walking to the bus-stop with her. Haven't done it in a long time, but last time I took it for granted.

STACEY, NEXT TIME YOU COME MY SCHOOL I BRING YOU ONE ROUND OF MY SCHOOL&BRING YOU GO COMPASS K?

Photos! Hehehes(:

With KJY!
With nu-er. I look so weird in this photo.
With LJY. Ironically, I think I look the best in this photo. My pimple is highly visible though. (GO AWAY, PIMPLE. HURRY UP!)
With darling(: That's nu-er's fingers. That's her trademark. Whenever she take photos for people got 2 fingers there derhs.
With Rosamund! Stacey's fingers again!

Nu-er quite camera-shy!(:
Darling also. She saw me with my hp pointed towards her and ran away. Her back view so chio(:
The IBC that thingy. I miss it so much!):
And I miss bus no. 8 too!):
Me, KJY, YeeJun&Stacey sitting on IBC floor. I look so fugly!

See how crowded the whole place is? That's Erica's back BTW.
THIS was all the "welcome" we got. And it was pinned at a CORNER of some whiteboard in the CORNER of the IBC. Come on, I expected a BANNER at the very least! Rosyth is so rich.
Me&BFFAEAEs! Finally another photo together! This is only our second photo together, can you believe?
Me&Jenell. SHE'S SUPER-CHIO CAN! I look fucking fugly next to her. And her legs are so toned. I feel so fat&ugly&insignificant next to her. Especially when SOME of the boys turn their head when she walks past.
Stacey's back.
Kemin's back.
The HIHS on the back of KJY's tee.
YeeJun's slanted back view.

ROSYTH SCHOOL SIGN!
Stacey's McFlurry! We mixed Coke, Chilli, Tomato, Pepper, Salt, French Fries&LJY's saliva. Nice cocktail(:

Yay! Finally got to see them! It's like... when you see them everyday you don't treasure the days, but when you see them once or twice a year you really treasure the times you meet.

I miss Rosyth.

at 10:21 PM

F-R-E-A-K-Y

In case you're illiterate or can't spell or understand English, that spells FREAKY. (But if you're illiterate or can't understand English and can't spell what are you doing reading my blog? The whole thing probably just looks like gibberish to you.

Anyways, today's the last TEACHING day of Term 3! *blows horn VERY loudly*

But too bad, the holidays are ONE week long and I have to go back to school practically everyday.

MONDAY-Choir (tentative)
TUESDAY-Maths Remedial (bottom 8 in class tio remedial. And I'm second from the bottom.)
WEDNESDAY-Go back to finish up IT.
THURSDAY-If Mr Tan lets me, finish up D&T artefact. If he don't allow, go sit in on English remedial (even though I did REASONABLY well for English. (Read below))
FRIDAY-Choir (tentative)

Damn it lar. Since when did a HOLIDAY turn into a week of HALF-DAY SCHOOL?!

About my day. Yeah. Today was pretty eventful yeahs? I stayed within the 5 walls of school (No, not a typo. nch has 5 walls including fire escape ^.^) for precisely 11 hours and 30 minutes!

Whoa. Even I surprised myself with that last sentence.

Anyway, day started out sane enough. Was raining this morning, so went straight to classroom. Then the minute I stepped into class and put down my bag they announced flag-raising was gonna start.
(And can you believe Jun Han was walking IN FRONT OF ME from the canteen to the classroom? This from the guy who has been late for school 6/7 of the days in nchs.)

This is truly disturbing. I'm waking up later and later. *Sets alarm clock to four in the morning immediately and jumps into bed a la Lizzie McGuire (the cartoon version)*

Okay, maybe four a.m. IS too early. Maybe six? *Re-sets alarm clock.*

Oh, thirty more minutes wouldn't hurt, would it? *Resets alarm clock to six-thirty*

SEE WHY I'M ALMOST LATE FOR SCHOOL EVERY MORNING? Weiqi hit the right chord when she called me a procrastinator.

Anyways, enough digressing and on about my day. So... the day progressed SANELY enough. Shan't elaborate until last two periods.

Second-last period. English. Mr Lin gave us Call of the Wild quiz. Didn't read (I'm turning more and more pai lately. This is an ENGLISH book. Normally I jump at the chance to read new books), so took out my calculator and used the random-dice function.

Then Mr Lin flashed our results. And I'm nawt that happy with my English marks. I only got a fucking 75.6 okays! And I lost to Audrey! (But considering she got 82.8 and topped the level, it should be quite a feat.)

If only the margin was narrower. It's like... 7 marks, I think. (Lazy to count, and I failed Maths anyways.)

So pissed lah!
Anyways, top 5 dynamites are:
1. Audrey (A1)
2. Me (A1)
3. Jeri (A2)
4. Weiqi (A2)
5. (Ang)Yixuan (A2)

Still, NOT happy. I HATE YOU AUDREY CHAN!!!!!!!

Then last period. Technically supposed to be Mr Lin's, but since it's the last teaching day of school, Mdm Siak had to give out the report books. All those whose parents weren't coming for the parent-teacher meeting later that evening got their report books back.

Guess if I got mine? (Dynamites need not answer. You guys know the answer anyway.)

If you guessed no, you probably know me better than those who said yes did.

Then after that helped Minqi&Bernice&Rachel calculate L1R5s. 1 language, then best 5 subjects. Hoho.

After that went up D&T workshop 2 with Jeri to get my D&T stuff, then went for lunch then to workshop 1.

Then did D&T. Workshop was crowded like dunno what liddat. 1B got people there. Sec2 also got people there. Seriouslyseriously alot of people! But by around 3.30 or 4, quite little already.

Then mum came at 5pm, went to see Mdm Siak. She was talking to Jun Han's parents, and they looked pretty pissed/alarmed/shocked/angry/speechless/taken aback (pick your favourite word) by their son's antics here. Couldn't hear what they were saying, but could see that their facial expressions were definetely NOT positive.

Waited in classroom, then Michelle came with her parents, and Liang Zhou came with his parents. Was pretty shocked to see Liang Zhou's parents. He doesn't even look one iota like either of them! At least, from my point of view.

Then Jeri, Gina&Bernice came back from workshop, and Bernice had to leave. So chatted with Michelle&Jeri cuz' Gina was busy doing idk what.

Then Mdm Siak talked to Liang Zhou's parents. Freaky like hell. They were pissed/alarmed/shocked/angry/speechless/taken aback too, but more than Jun Han's parents, I think. Sheesh.

I actually kinda sympathise with them in a way, idk why.

Yeah, then mum's turn! I had to go along too, sad right?): Then Mdm Siak showed report book, talkedtalkedtalked.

MY L1R5 IS A GLORIOUS 10!!!!

Minus my 2 HCL marks, 8! I can go to almost ANY JC! Except maybe, Hwa Chong&RJC. If my CCA points do well in Sec4, minus another 2. 6 MARKS! I CAN GO HCI&RJC TOO!

Yeah, I shouldn't be too ecstatic now. It's only a midsemester paper. It can get worse. (But frankly, my HCL&Maths can't get any worse. D7 for both.)

Sheesh.

More tomorrow. It's PRECISELY 10.58PM now, and I have to go sleep if not I'll be procrastinating like hell tomorrow morning.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TOMORROW!


at 10:01 PM

Whoa. Got so many people tag lehhs. Whoa.

Yes, I read through EACH and EVERY one of your tags, not a single word missing or a fullstop or comma or whatsoever missing k?

Okay, guys. Yesterday's gonna be the last time I'll ever slash. That I can promise you guys.

My heart feels so heavy now, okays? THANKS TO YOU GUYS LARHS :X

Trying to get myself back to the old cheerful happy bubbly girl I was. Trying, trying, trying.

Replies to individual tags. Really don't wanna do it, but I have to:
(From oldest to latest)
J!: It's not "stupid" exam marks. They seriously make me feel like hanging myself can? To work so hard and end up failing. Believe me, it's not something you wanna do.

clarine: I kena scolding by you and Afrah today enough lerh larhs, hahas ^.^

SHZZZZE!: Will remember derh lorhs. Haha.

jerilene: Yup, and thanks for telling me the truth :D No lah, not showing off. Online journal. Hahahas. The D&T thing still on tomorrow right? Don't bail on me last minute k? I really have to finish my artefact >.<

mAbEl(:: Yup, loads better, thanks(: Hahahas, won't cut you derh larhs. Chillax :D

YIYUN<3: (Her tag is very, very long. And I'm not sure how I'm supposed to reply to it. So I shan't. Sorry, Da Jie.)


at 1:25 PM

To all those people whom without, my life would be an empty shell:

Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down
Now nothin' could change what you mean to me

Thanks so much, guys. For everything. Nothing can change what you guys mean to me.


at 12:22 PM

Skipped school today, no thanks (or should I say thanks) to a mild fever, a terrible runny nose, flu and a serioussss sore throat that's burning my throat into half.

The sore throat and flu started yesterday, the fever started last night. Then this morning when waking up mum decided that I should stay at home.

So... yay! I got to stay at home and wake up at ELEVEN a.m.!

Then lazed on couch reading until now. (I'm a couch potato, so?) AND just took my medicine. Blergh. Blechhs. I'm trying to erase that bitter taste from my brain.

Is it just me? Or after reading l8r, g8r by Lauren Myracle, I wanna attend AMERICAN high school! Where they end school in the summer and start a new school year in fall!

Oh, and I can't wait to graduate.

I hate school, not because of the people. But because I hate having to do homework and filing and run 2.4km for PE and stuff.

(Ohya, was supposed to run again today. Thank God for my fever :X)

I hate school. I wish the December holidays can come faster, I wanna start a whole new year, with a bunch of poor Sec1s below me, not knowing what a sibei lanbei school they got themselves into.

YES, I MEAN SIBEI LANBEI.

Can't they see that we only go through this once? Why do they make secondary school life thorougly UNenjoyable???

Fuck nchs.

P.S. The new cuts on my inner arm serve to remind me about my lanbei exam results. Especially maths. And remind me about how much school sucks. The old ones remind me of HIM.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

vas te faire encule.
Tu sais que je suis sensible à la casse.
Tu sais que je réagirait comme celui-ci.
why'd vous backstab encore moi?
et puis quand je vous confrontés,
Vous avez dit que vous didnt.
arrêter mentir, chienne.


at 11:29 PM

Yup, third post today. Changed blogskin. Old one was waaaaayy too common.

Surfed around blogskins.com for nice skins, all the nice ones are HTML type, not nav type. So this will have to do. But this one's nice, don't ya think?(:

Alright, I'll have to leave the blogskin as it is for today. I'll see if I can find another one when I get the chance.

AND I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF MY CHIO PINK COMP! I WENT ONTO LIMEWIRE TODAY AND DISCOVERED THAT MY LIMEWIRE IS PINK!

How fantastically amazing is THAT? Afrah will be traumatized and probably never use LimeWire again at the thought of it being PINK.

Gotta go get my beauty sleep now, the smell of burning midnight oil is getting increasingly tempting, but I guess I'd better resist the temptation and get my beauty sleep.

Toodles(:

P.S. I HEART MY CHIO COMP!


at 12:33 PM

Creative today was so damn funny larhs!

Learnt about how to UN-cliche a story, then had to write a UNCLICHED story based on the given cliche, 350 words.

Spent writing time talking with Jane, Elizabeth and Shzeyuin. In the end wrote only 100+ words. Cuz' I LOVE writing cliches!(:

Watched The Brothers Grimm, so funny(:

Anyways, Shzeyuin's non-cliche was so LMAO-worthy lahh! Wrote about this teenage girl falling in love with her chikopeh (Liyi's favourite word) teacher Mr Qi. And how Mr Qi agreed even though there's a 19years age difference between them.

So funny lah! Me&Jane were laughing our heads off. And I wrote about staring at the back of some random guy's head.

Kill me.

Now so happy! Made myself a new desktop wallpaper! Shall upload the screenshot of my computer screen, since you all can't steal it unless your name is JANELLE too(:

Click to full-view to see its absolute chio-ness(:

But I think the desktop icons kinda ruin it though. I need to find a better place to put them. Or maybe ask Sleepy the computer genius to help me turn all the icons pink and black to suit the wallpaper(:

Then to suit the background I changed my comp's display settings, so now my window bars are PINK! And I customized the pink myself, it's not that cheapskate not-baby-not-hot-pink Vista provides.

Yay! Happydappysappyhappy with myself for turning my comp so pink-ish.

Afrah can never use my comp until she turns immune to PINK! But now I'll have to try and see if I can turn the ugly times ten bottom bar to pink, the "Start" bar to pink, and turn my computer screen border pink-and-black.

But first, I'm going to work on the class tee design. There will be 3 or 4, and then the class is gonna vote(:

Laytah, people.

[edit]
3.30PM
I rock! I successfully pinkified my comp! Yay me! Here's a screenshot I took.

My Blogger Image Upload thing is pink too! And so is the hilight!

So are the dialog boxes!

And... so is my PAINT!

Unfortunately, I can't get the Start bar to be PINK. Sigh... Still, my comp is dead chio now can!
[/edit]


at 9:54 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STACEY NU-ER<3

MUMMY LOVES YOU!

This week has been the most overwhelming week of my life. It's currently contesting for worst week too, and I think it might get to stand on the highest rung of the podium.

My head's exploding with a terrible migraine that's been occupying half my head since 10am this morning, and the countless life problems.

The Bernice problem, the HIM problem, etcetera etcetera etcetera.

On top of that, I failed Math and got a B4 for Science.

All I need is this miserable week to end.

Please, someone, take the physical and emotional pain away. Please?


at 10:02 PM

I've said it before and I'll say it again - I fucking hate exams.

But this round of exams can be considered the easiest exam papers in my Sec1 life to me. Probably because this is the only round I mugged for. The other two were slack like hell.

Stupid D&T. Workshop is so fun. Mugging for the D&T exam is NAWT.

One more paper. And then it's all over.

But I still have Choir tomorrow after school. *Sighhhhhhhhh*

Alright, back to mugging.


at 8:51 PM

épingles et aiguilles mgod, ma jambe est engourdie comme l'enfer.

pinsandneedlesinmyleg,ouchouchouch.numblikehellllllll

And I just realise how common my blogskin is. But the blogskin hunting will have to wait until after my common tests.

Shit. Sec2 History is Singapore history. That's like... chicken's feed compared to this.

Not fair. I wanna go Sec2, Sec1 History sucks. I MEAN, WHO WANTS TO LEARN ABOUT INDIA, CHINA& SOUTHEAST ASIA ANYWAY?

Random digressing on my part.

Alright, back to the studies of India, China and Southeast Asia.

Endurance, Janelle. Two more papers to go. And then it's all over. (Phew.)


at 4:06 PM

I hate exams.

Yes, it always comes down to that.

Yesterday's HCL papers were... shitty. And the Maths paper was all right, not half as bad as I thought it would be.

But my 2 marks flew out of the window already): They ask me calculate exterior angles I go calculate interior. By the time I realised there were 2mins left.

Then today's Science paper... sure fail. I already told you I suck at Physics. And only like.... 1/4 of the paper was Bio. Rest of it was Physics, and I didn't memorise the asshole-y formulas.

Lit was fine, nothing much to complain about.

Got HCL paper one back today. Jin LaoShi is a super-fast marker can! 80 scripts in ONE NIGHT. Superwoman sia.

Guess what I got?

15/62!

I was laughing my ass off man. Such a pro score(:

Tomorrow is History. So I shall go mug now. Byes(:

they say he's not worth the pain.
but how do they know?
how do they know if he's worth the pain?
they haven't even met him.


at 7:14 PM

Tuition kills brain cells.

That is my conclusion after about 3 hours of tuition STRAIGHT from the minute I stepped onto the marble floors of my house.

I've got Maths and the 2 HCL papers tomorrow, which are my worst subjects.

So what do I get on the day before? DRILLED LIKE SHIT.

This better be worth it.

The Geog paper today was HARD. Only like... 2 questions? For 25 marks?

Kill me already. 7 more papers to go and my brain cells are like... half-dead.

God knows how dead they'll be by the time I hand in my D&T paper on August 22.


at 6:15 PM

After school had mass Geog lecture with 1B, 1C&1H in Meeting Room, since 1A, 1E and 1G already had theirs.

Then after lunch went up to Meeting Room with Rachel, Weiqi, Bernice, Minqi and YeeTzen. All the 1D people were either sitting on the steps or hanging around the stairwell in an act of anti-social behaviour.

Then went into Meeting Room, sat with Minqi&Bernice near the back originally, but later moved in front with Rachel, Weiqi&YeeTzen to sit with the 1F people cuz' couldn't see.

Geog lecture was... boring times ten. Spent most of it chatting with YeeTzen, Rachel&Weiqi and timing Weiqi while she solved her cube.

After that went Compass Macs' with Weiqi&Rachel, treated them to McFlurry.

Then MRT-ed and bus-ed back. Home sweet home(:

Just now caught the encore telecast of the Beijing Olympics' Women's Team Table Tennis event on Channel 5, and I feel so proud to be Singaporean :D

I did something veryvery emo today in HCL. Cindy lent me her blade(:

Now I shall go and mug for my Geog common test. Mummy's bringing me shopping tomorrow as a reward for mugging like shitass and actually paying attention in class(:


at 9:29 PM

Da Jie once told me, that God has already planned my life route. He's already planned my future, and to get there I'll have to overcome a series of obstacles.

She told me that this inferiority complex I have is one of the obstacles God has set for me in my life. Because only by jumping over it, will I become stronger than I was before.

At least, that was the essence of what she said.

Re-thinking about it made me cry.

Because I'm not sure if I can overcome this obstacle. I'm not sure if I can regain my footing and
find the person I used to be, find my confidence back, and get rid of this inferiority complex.

Look, if you don't understand me, don't keep asking me. Because I myself don't know who I am. I lost myself in the race against believing. I lost the person I thought I was. And until now I can't find her.

never underestimate what's inside you that makes you special.

I think I underestimated what's inside of me. But even if I did, I feel that I'm not good enough. I've got an inferiority complex, I feel that no matter how good I am I'll never be good enough.

I don't know why I'm feeling this way all the time. Insecurity overlaps feelings of inferiority. I keep thinking that I'll never be good enough no matter how hard I try.

But am I really trying hard enough to push myself over this hurdle?


at 6:17 PM

Alright, here's the reason why I was emo this morning, taken straight from my journal. Uncensored. You don't get any more raw than this.

had lit today. (Yes, I write in small caps in my journal.)
the more miss lim talks about sing to the dawn,
there more i feel like dawan.

there's something dawan really wants,
which is to go to the city school to study.
at first she's dead determined even though there's an obstacle in front of her,
but later,
the more rejections she faces, she gets more and more cynical,
more and more disbelieving in her own abilities,
and begins to question her right and her worth.

later, she starts to ask herself,
how she'd feel if she gave up the scholarship.
she's scared she'll regret it later.
she wants to go for it, but she can't pluck up the courage to go for it.
she loses faith in herself,
and she doesn't believe that she can do it.

sound familiar?

there was once during clarine&co's lit presentation,
they showed us the video of the theme song,
of the upcoming sing to the dawn movie.

after the video, miss lim said something,
something that almost made me cry,
in front of thirty-nine other pupils.
this is what she said:

"if there's something you really want,
go for it before you regret it later.
don't keep thinking that you can't do it."

that's just a part of what she said,
but those three lines...
they made me admire dawan even more.

she dares to dream, to believe in the impossible.
she doesn't squash the hope because it doesn't seem feasible
she uses everything she can,
tries her hardest
to turn that dream, that tiny flicker of hope,
into reality.
and she did it.

maybe it's because my dreams have been crushed so many times,
that i don't believe that real life has happy endings.
maybe you see them in drama serials,
but i don't believe things go that way in real life.
and even though i dream about it,
i don't believe it'll happen in real life.

that's probably why i keep refusing to step out of my shell,
to take that first step out of my comfort zone.
because i don't believe in myself.
because i'm a pessimist, who asks "what if"s too many times,
who believes in the negative.

maybe it's really because my dreams have been crushed,
that i don't dare to dream.
because i'm scared they'll get crushed again,
scared that i can't piece back the pieces of my broken heart.
maybe that's really why.

-end of journal entry-

If you want to see the video of the theme song of the upcoming STTD movie, the URL is here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OviyNptln9Y

All I want is a happy ending. Is that too much to ask for?


at 4:04 PM

Blog is reopened!

I didn't expect it to be so fast, but since I had time yesterday I thought I'd get the blog back up again. Besides, this time I'm lazy and used an existing skin from Blogskins.com instead of creating my own :P

But this skin is nice right? Black and colourful! And manymany links(:

Anyways, today was pretty emo for me, but I shan't go into details in this post. Maybe next post.

After school went shopping at Compass with Minqi and Weiqi, so happy! We were laughing all the way, hahas.

I finally bought my BY2 CD! Even though it's Tuesday and my wallet is near empty, it's fine. I'm dieting. I don't need recess.

Endurance, Janelle.

I'm listening to it now, so nice! BY2 rock!


at 3:19 PM

Soupir.
J'ai été en cours en rond pendant deux ans,
et je ne peux pas faire de mon esprit.
Je goût essayer quelqu'un d'autre,
mais je revenir à lui.
J'ai essayé lui,
et un peu plus.
Mais en quelque sorte ou d'autres,
je continue à aimer à nouveau.
Pourquoi at-il de l'être tout à fait irrésistible?
Si dieu grec chaud?
Pourquoi?

I really should win an Oscar for this scene I'm in. My acting like I don't like you is really convincing.

if we were a movie,
you'd be the right guy,
and i'd be the best friend
that you fall in love with in the end.
Hannah Montana was right.


at 4:52 PM

Things seem to be going quite well for you in many respects, dear Scorpio. Your thinking is clear, your emotions are under control, and the puzzle pieces are fitting into place. This is your time to take advantage of these pockets of good fortune and turn them into huge treasure chests. One little spark is all it takes to light a forest fire. You have the power within you to make anything happen. Especially now!

My life is perfect?

Yeah, right. I wish.

But I do like the line about one little spark is all it takes to light a forest fire.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE<3

at 9:32 AM

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

I stayed up all night watching the Beijing Olympics Opening Ceremony, so don't mind me if some of the captions are a little weird, because my eyesight is not working too well as I've just woken up.

And As promised, PHOTOS!

I'll start with the class deco ones(:

Underwear-shaped piece of scrap paper. LOL!~.

Left notice board.


Right notice board.

Cute lil' flags hanging from the ceiling.

Mabel's idea to stick everyone's names on their tables. This is mine(:

Now, YESTERDAY'S PSC PHOTOS!

Me&Afrah in canteen. Bernice in bg like ghost liddat trying to scare me =.="

Me&Jeri! I look weird in this photo.

While waiting for bus. This is the queue in front of me. The ones nearest to the back, the one on the left is Weiqi and the one on the right is Yee Tzen.

And the queue behind me! The one nearest to the cam on the right is Michelle.

Me,Bernice&Rachel's reflection in the statue's pedestal in our foyer. From the side can see a little of Bernice's specs. Rachel tying hair into two ponytails. Cute right?(:

In first-floor staff toilet. Minqi talking and tying hair, hahas.

Camwhoring on bus! My lips look weirdly big in this photo =.="

Overview of bus ride. The ones standing up (meaning the only two whose FULL HEADS you can see in the fourth row) are YuHan on the left and Michelle on the right.

Me&YuHan's shades.

Me&YuHan's shades again! Bernice and Laopo say this shot very chio. =.="

YuHan's shades! Side view. I heart the multi-coloured polka dots. So kawaii.

At the sports hall, everyone was sitting like this...

But Weijie and JunHan were sitting HERE.

And they later moved down here.

Overview of sports hall, right side.

Me&Bernice in sports hall toilet.

Idk who standing at the steps there, but I wanted to show the Rulang Primary kids sitting on the floor. Then when they stamped their feet for the "We Will Rock You" cheer, the whole sports hall shook. Little tykes, the lot of them.

Huining's school.

More shots of the Rulang Primary kids plus the ones sitting on the stone seats on top.

Saw this while walking out to the junction to link hands. So cute, right?

Me&Laopo in bus. Can only see half of her face cuz' the camera was tilted towards me. Sorry, Laop.

The wonderful bigbig name Yixuan drew for me on my hand with her dark purple cleancolour!

Me camwhoring in bus. Cindy saw the phone camera and put her fingers there. LOL!

YuHan's symbol! Wanted to buy it for her when we saw it at Comics Connection in Compass.

Bernice&Rainie Yang's poster. They're both wearing red. But Bernice looks fat in this outfit, idk why. But anyway, this was taken in Sembawang in Compass.

That's all for the photos! Tata<3